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A Dear Friend Just Made Me Cry

Sunday, January 23, 2011

But they were tears of happiness.
Brian hasn't seen me in a few years, since I moved away from North Carolina almost 4 years ago. When I left the Carolina's I was at my heaviest weight, so he only remembered me being well over three hundred pounds. I have pictures of my weight loss journey posted on my Facebook, because I am wanting to be as open as possible with my weight loss. I believe it will help me be more accountable, the more people that know means I can get that much more support.
So he was looking at my weight loss photos last night. He said he went to bed and had a dream about me, that we were walking on the beach and ran into an old friend of ours and he and I were hugging and laughing and the happiest and most alive he had ever seen the three of us. He called tonight to tell me all of this.
I didn't recognize the number on the caller ID when I picked the phone up and he didn't even wait for me to get Hello all the way out before he was saying OMG... OMG I can't believe you did this, I'm so proud of you, you look wonderful. He is genuinely happy for me, I could hear it in his voice and it struck something deep within me. Brian is proud of me, to hear a good friend say "I'm proud of you, you look fantastic!" well it took me by surprise. I was grinning from ear to ear and the tears were rolling down my cheeks. But they were the best tears I have cried in ages.
I told him, to me I don't feel like I look different, but then I see myself in the mirror every day and I don't see what others see. He said "NO WAY, YOU ARE WAY DIFFERENT, IN A GREAT WAY!"
I must be way different because I was going through my closet just before he called and I have a huge stack of clothes I can no longer wear that will be heading to Goodwill in the next few days. It's funny he would call when he did because I had just had a cry concerning "why did you do this to yourself Pam" as I was trying clothes on. (it's all a part of this weight loss journey, facing things that put me here in the first place)
So, I must be different because I am more outgoing. I must be different because I dance more then sit still. I must be different because I believe in me now.
I'm so glad Brian called tonight and reinforced that everything I am doing to get healthy is paying off in big ways.
Thank You Lord for my wonderful supportive friends.

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  • 2QUIETUDESGOLD
    How perfectly AWESOME.
    3681 days ago
  • VKKESU
    Timming is everything ! Be proud of yourself.
    3687 days ago
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  • 1EMMA2011
    So proud of you - Congrats on all of your achievements. Praying for you, emoticon
    3755 days ago
  • KELLYLEIP
    I feel so happy for you!! It is always so nice to see others recognize our efforts. You are always there to step up and congratulate or encourage others when they are down. You deserve some recognition and congratulations too. I'm glad that it happened in an unexpected place.
    3757 days ago
  • TRAVELNISTA
    You have been doing emoticon on your journey here on Spark People. We have watched you blossom from both your weightloss and health issues. Comments like those from your friends mean more or at least they do to me, than the numbers on the scale.
    3757 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4738530
    That is so awesome. God works in really odd ways sometimes, but He always knows just what we need to keep going! Keep up all the hard work...its paying off!!
    3757 days ago
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