A Dear Friend Just Made Me Cry
Sunday, January 23, 2011
But they were tears of happiness.
Brian hasn't seen me in a few years, since I moved away from North Carolina almost 4 years ago. When I left the Carolina's I was at my heaviest weight, so he only remembered me being well over three hundred pounds. I have pictures of my weight loss journey posted on my Facebook, because I am wanting to be as open as possible with my weight loss. I believe it will help me be more accountable, the more people that know means I can get that much more support.
So he was looking at my weight loss photos last night. He said he went to bed and had a dream about me, that we were walking on the beach and ran into an old friend of ours and he and I were hugging and laughing and the happiest and most alive he had ever seen the three of us. He called tonight to tell me all of this.
I didn't recognize the number on the caller ID when I picked the phone up and he didn't even wait for me to get Hello all the way out before he was saying OMG... OMG I can't believe you did this, I'm so proud of you, you look wonderful. He is genuinely happy for me, I could hear it in his voice and it struck something deep within me. Brian is proud of me, to hear a good friend say "I'm proud of you, you look fantastic!" well it took me by surprise. I was grinning from ear to ear and the tears were rolling down my cheeks. But they were the best tears I have cried in ages.
I told him, to me I don't feel like I look different, but then I see myself in the mirror every day and I don't see what others see. He said "NO WAY, YOU ARE WAY DIFFERENT, IN A GREAT WAY!"
I must be way different because I was going through my closet just before he called and I have a huge stack of clothes I can no longer wear that will be heading to Goodwill in the next few days. It's funny he would call when he did because I had just had a cry concerning "why did you do this to yourself Pam" as I was trying clothes on. (it's all a part of this weight loss journey, facing things that put me here in the first place)
So, I must be different because I am more outgoing. I must be different because I dance more then sit still. I must be different because I believe in me now.
I'm so glad Brian called tonight and reinforced that everything I am doing to get healthy is paying off in big ways.
Thank You Lord for my wonderful supportive friends.