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Feeling Drained, and Sad

Monday, January 24, 2011

Yesterday I went to a friend's house for a special reason. My friend is Geoff. We went to Jr. High, and High School together. His wife Linda, moved to our area in the 9th grade, and also graduated with our High School class of '68. It doesn't seem that long to us mentally, but the years do not lie. Two years ago I was planning our 40th reunion. Geoff called me, and wanted to help me out. He lives close by, so this was perfect. Anyway, he helped me with planning, and calling, and gave me lots of moral support. And that is how you can describe Geoff. He rarely thought of himself, and was always there with a helping hand. With a smile on his face. Geoff is a true Gentlemen. Last year Geoff was diagnosed with Lou Gehrig's Disease. Normally most people live with this disease a few years before they become truly disabled. Unfortunately for Geoff, he is already in a wheel chair, and his speech is somewhat slurred. I have never seen something progress to fast. Two of our friends, and were on the football team with Geoff, planned a surprised party for Geoff. So about 20 of us showed up for moral support. Linda's Sister was there, and Geoff and Linda's Daughter and Son. Boy have they done a wonderful job with raising their kids. You can see the love they have for each other. Once in a while I have a hard time with certain situations, and this is one of them. I know we can't control what happens in life, and only the Good Lord has the reasons for what happens to us. But I do have to question, why Geoff. He is such a super person. I was sitting here, wondering if I should write a blog about Geoff, because I knew it wouldn't be a uplifting blog. Then my Hubby comes home from work tonight, and said he got an email at work from management. Seems they are thinking of deducting a days pay every two weeks, which is how he is paid. We are already struggling. But then who isn't these days. My Hubby is under a contract, and he thinks he will be working until Sept. They did tell him, they were pleased with his work, and will try their hardest to place him within the company once the contract ends. Boy do I have my fingers crossed. I am thankful he even has a job. There are a lot of people who don't. I guess I just feel down because I am worried about both situations. I feel like crying, yet I seldom cry, so I probably won't. I know, not good for you, but that is how I am.
However, I WILL NOT TURN TO FOOD FOR COMFORT. I gained a bit during the holidays, and have lost 5 of those pds. Only 3 more pds. to go until I reach 150 again. I am bound and determined to keep losing.
I want to thank all of my friends who sent me the "beautiful person" note. It put a smile on my face. So if you don't hear from me a lot this week, don't feel I'm not thinking of you. You all mean a lot to me!


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  • WANNAREAD
    Sometimes I think people like your friend Geoff are "too good for this world." Last year a nice family we know lost their youngest daughter, only 23, to a heart condition that they didn't even know about. But this girl, named Trisha, was so wonderful! There was no way you could be sad around her. She made you feel like you were really special, that you really mattered to God! She was so positive and uplifting. I couldn't help wondering why God took her when we need people like her SO MUCH!!! I told my mom about her and my mom said she knew a girl like her in high school who died unexpectedly only a few days after graduation. "Too good for this world" seems to be the only explanation!
    Good for you for sticking to your resolutions! Thanks for being an inspiration!
    3835 days ago
  • BUFFALOGAL1952
    Jeanne, I feel the same way you do..."Why do bad things happen to good people?" I don't know the answer either, but there must a greater plan. Your friend and his loved ones have a strength and a love that is amazing. I think it helps those of us who come into contact with these wonderful individuals to be better and more compassionate. (HUGS)).
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  • MCKATIE2
    emoticon Such sad news about your friend Geoff and Your husbands job as well. Keep your chin up!!!
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  • ANEPANALIPTI
    Big hugs from me darling. This is a lot to deal with. I can't even imagine what it is like to see your friend suffering like that, but it is wonderful that he has such a loving family and so many friends around him. thinking of you, and maybe those tears can flow soon, xoxo

    Dimitra
    3840 days ago
  • JOYSGARDEN
    Jeanne, I can understand where you are coming from right now, as I'm there too. My sister-in-law is dying of ovarian cancer, and I expect a phone call any day. Just had to put my father-in-law in a nursing home because he fell and broke his hip. Sometimes life just piles on too much. They say "God only gives you what you can handle". He must think I'm stronger than I think I am.... I lost a friend to ALS three years ago. We had lost touch, and I decided to try and find her. Finally found someone who could give me her address, and I sent her a card with a note. I got a note back from her brother, saying she had gotten the card, and seemed pleased, but that she had passed away the next day. So spend time with Geoff, and let him know you care.... The sun will come out again for both of us...
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  • MARTHA-ANN
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  • SUNNYH99
    I'm so sorry about all the sadness and stress. I hope the party was a lot of fun for Geoff and for all of you. It has to touch him that everyone cares so much. One thing about ALS, the person doesn't lose his ability to think, but the body's ability to function eventually shuts down. He will need support and human contact, including jokes and news. Normal interaction with friends and loved ones is essential for quality of life, for the duration. Please vent here and let us know when you need support!
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    3842 days ago
  • FUTUREHOPE49
    Jeanne, so sorry to hear about your friend Geoff! That is a devastating disease. I hope your husbands contract is safe and that he can continue with his work. My husband was mad redundant last year, not the first time. He has not been able to get a job since. He is trying to get a contract at the moment. I know how hard it can be at times. Keep your chin up!
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  • KATHYSCOLLIES
    Jeanne, I'm so sorry to hear about Geoff's health issues. Watching someone you care about diminishing in front of you is so terribly hard. He sounds like an amazing person, and friend. I think you are lucky to have known him for all these years!

    Jobs are changing all over the planet it seems - we found out today that the site my hubby has worked at for years now will officially close its doors on April 3rd, and will not be keeping security on after that date. I don't know what will happen if his company doesn't find a new site for him after that.

    Hugs, hugs, and more hugs!
    Kathy
    3843 days ago
  • INDEJAM09
    This was just what I needed to hear myself today. I've been struggling with accepting my medical condition, aging, job situation, my DH is also out of work and working stop gap jobs. I lost my menial job on friday. I was thinking about thanking you for always offering me support with your comments on my activity feed...but I needed points for posting on someone's blog. I'm so Glad that I chose to reply to yours and read it.
    I'm sorry about your friend Geof. I was talking to my best friend tonight. I talk to her seeral times a week now because her DH died last year and she is very ill. We've been best friends since middle school too. She is back home in VA. Her son and I are closest to her since her illness and loss. Her sister loves her but still lectures her, I just listen. It's all I can do. That and tell her I love her and I'm there for her.
    When I feel low it is so good to get some perspectie. My problems are fixable. Even if they weren't, nothing compared to a terminal illness or the loss of a spouse. It helps to know others share the issues I'm haing, that I'm really not in this alone. That my fears related to my friend and job and health are also shared by others. Not in a misery loves company sort of way, but in a other people are here with me way, an I feel your pain sort of way.
    Keep sharing it doesn't just help you.
    I don't cry alot, not about big things, I cry over stupid stuff. I think it's saved up tears finding a way out. I read years ago that there are chemicals in tears that actually are mood lifting. So a good cry really does help. Good luck with that.
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    3843 days ago
  • PSMITH3841
    So sorry for your sadness...sick friends are a heartbreaking experience my heart and prayers go out to you and your friend Greg....also hopes for a good outcome for your Husbands job placement. Hugs, Penny emoticon
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  • PENELOPESUE61
    I am so sorry about everything that's going on. Sounds like you and your Hubby need a night out to let your hair down. You can always talk to God when your alone and things are getting to you. I wish you and your Husband the best! I hope your Friend is doing okay. emoticon emoticon
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    So sorry about Geoff & your husband's job. Sending you all lots of hugs & prayers.
    3843 days ago
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    So sad about Geoff! Hope everything works out for your DH & his job! Hang in there! emoticon
    3843 days ago
  • KLAD_COCKERS
    That's a tough situation, and ALS is a nasty disease. I don't know why these things happen to good people . . . but I've asked myself that question more than once. Saying a prayer for you that you find comfort.
    3843 days ago
  • SPLASHDOG1
    That's a boatload of hard stuff to deal with, no one can blame you for feeling down right now. I know all of us here in Sparkland will be here ready to listen and hopefully talking about it in blog form helps a little. I've got my fingers crossed for your husband.

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  • HIKETOHEIGHTS
    Sorry your world is so blue right now. Music is so good for cheering our soul! Try to get a moment for some nice relaxing stretches, deep breathing & a wee bit of music to soothe you. Victoria
    3843 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2562942
    ALS is so devasting! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your friend.
    3843 days ago
  • PRUPLEBEAR
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  • CUTTINABBY
    emoticon Those are a lot of emotions to hold in my friend . Even if you can't or won't cry it does eventually come around to bite us .You may not turn to food this week or even in a month but it will catch you unaware and you won't even know the rason why you are overeating. Burn off that anger and frustration with some brisk cardio or something it doesn't matter what the excersise is really it's just an outlet to release those emotions .
    I do hope your husband gets placed with the company and my prayers for you, Geoff and his family .
    3844 days ago
  • MZLADY77
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  • JHADZHIA
    So sorry to hear about Geoff :( I wonder too, why good people get struck down like that.
    Wishing your husband all the best with his job..
    We have every right to feel sad and cry, we are human with feelings.
    I like getting my frustrations and feelings of helplessness out with some rousing exercise or cleaning the house like a madwoman..Try it! Its very releasing..
    You are strong, you will persevere..

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    3844 days ago
  • DAISYBELL6
    Life is a challenge, but we just keep moving on, doing the best we can. My heart goes out to your friend and his family and to your family with your husband's job situation.
    3844 days ago
  • REMEMBER2BME
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  • SLIMMERJESSE
    How many times I've asked this same question! Having lost 9 close friends and family members in the last three years, they were all good people. And my dear cousin, the latest to go, was the best of human beings. Wow, how she suffered. So, I guess there are those who have their comfort in heavenly rewards for these people. I'm sorry for your friend - and for you.
    3844 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4664429
    So sorry you're having such a difficult week. Both of your situations are really tough. I'll say an extra prayer for you and your friend, Geoff, as well as for Geoff's doctors and caregivers.

    Sending extra hugs your way,

    Kath
    3844 days ago
  • JOJOSZENT
    I am so sorry to hear about your wonderful friend. I know you said you don't hardly ever cry but if you feel that you need to then you probably should. emoticon for you my friend. I know what you are going through with the hard times, my husband hardly has any work right now but I know we can make it through these tough times, as you said God has his reasons for everything.
    3844 days ago
  • MEMARE
    I’m sorry you’re feeling sad and drained Jeanne. I think Puppetgirlky nailed reason ‘why Geoff’ although we can only speculate. I hope your hubby gets through these challenging times with his employment. I know it’s not easy. Keep the faith, take a deep breath and remember if God brings you to it; He will get you through it. Hugs to you friend. emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • ONESPOTLEFT
    you are a blessing to a friend in need; there is no greater love that the Lord has taught us.

    Stay strong

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  • MARLINDA5
    I am so sorry to hear about your friend Geoff - what is great he has family and friends like you.

    I just found out that my brother-in-law Geof has Parkinson Disease - he is my older sister's husband. They are coming this weekend to get away from Seattle and get some sunshine in California. We will be celebrating his birthday, mine, my brother and sister and neice on Saturday.

    I will be praying for you, your family and your friend Geoff during this time.

    Good job in not gaining any weight - wow 150 that is great. emoticon
    3844 days ago
  • TWOTIMESS
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    Your positive attitude will carry you through. Geoff is loved and comforted by the love of his family and good friends like you. The economy will turn around again and your husband's perseverance will see him through. God's blessings to you!
    3844 days ago
  • BANAN2
    I understand that "feeling like crying but probably won't" thing. I went through a crying phase in my early forties, and I guess I'm all cried out. I am so sorry about your friend Geoff. that must be heartbreaking to watch. My friend Judy, who died in November, had about four years where she just started having multiple systems in her body fail, and she was in constant pain. It is shocking to see our friends decline like that, especially when we are in relatively good health. Then to get the double whammy of the worry about your husband's job...I am so sorry you have that burden. These are really hard times and nothing seems secure nowadays. Good for you, though, that you are losing weight in spite of these sad things. And good for you for expressing it all here in this blog. I think that is key in changing our lives, and you KNOW that we are here for you in good times and in bad. Take good care of yourself this week.
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  • CHERIRIDDELL
    Oh Jeanne I am so sorry to hear the world is pressing in on you today.You have a wonderful spirit and you will keep on brightening everyone's lives. I will certainly remember you in my prayers .My day was a bit brutal today too.I hate to hear you have been having a rough time.Somehow another day will dawn and our dogs will keep us smiling .Thank heavens we have been blessed with them ! Keep your chin up .love and hugs,Cheri
    3844 days ago
  • PUPPETGIRLKY
    I HAD NO IDEA WHY I GOT ON HERE TONIGHT BECAUSE I'VE REALLY BEEN PRESSED FOR TIME LIKE YOU WITH ALOT TO DO. THEN I READ THIS BLOG OF YOURS AND I KNEW WHY I WAS ON HERE. SOMETIMES I BELIEVE GOD CROSSES OUR PATHS FOR DIFFERENT REASONS AND I HAVE ALWAYS FELT A SPECIAL BOND WITH YOU BECAUSE OF OUR DOGGIE HUMOR:)
    I DON'T KNOW WHY GOD PLACES DIFFERENT PEOPLE IN OUR LIVES THE WAY HE DOES EXCEPT THAT HE BLESSES US THROUGH THEM IN THE WAY THAT HE WORKS THROUGH THEM. YOUR FRIEND HAS THE GIFT OF SERVICE. AND JESUS BEING A SERVANT HIMSELF BY SERVING US THE WAY THAT HE DOES CAN "SO" USE GIVING FOLKS LIKE THAT. THE ONES THAT ARE WILLING TO GIVE EVERYTHING FOR A FRIEND AND ASKING NOTHING IN RETURN. DOESN'T THAT SOUNDS LIKE YOUR FRIEND.YOU KNOW WHAT??? IT ALSO SOUNDS LIKE YOU MY FRIEND:) I BLESS YOU IN JESUS NAME TONIGHT. HUGS GIRL...BE BLESSED!!! I SEND YOU PEACE:)

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    3844 days ago
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