Heart, body and soul in bad shape! Want to give away
Monday, February 07, 2011
I never really have been one of those people to look out for themselves. It has always been the big picture. The type of happy go lucky...if you are happy than am happy. I have recently come to the realization, that I am a very unhappy woman.
I am so unhappy in so many ways that I have never noticed until recently. I have to be honest with myself finally and truthfully say, that I really thought I would be so much further in life than what I am right now. I am really disappointed in myself and the things I have let go or not taken responsibility for .
However, that is all about to change. I have made commitments like this before. BUT... never have I ever been so disgusted with the way I have behave with my body, heart and soul.
I do believe that there are so meant things that I can do to fix the rut I am in. I just need to sit and make a plan.
I do realize that planning to many rules at once is a great way to fail. I have decided that I will start over in the stage one of spark. That way I can develop the right habits to succeed.
I guess a great way to start a Monday is to realize everything that I could be doing in my life and find a way to fix it.
I have been listening to alt of music lately. Some fast some slow but all meaningful. Atleast I seem to think so .
This is a great song for a Monday and keeps me thinking that I judge me. Instead of judging myself maybe I need to understand myself.
Judge Me Not Ye Saints
For My History May Be Tainted
But I'm Sober Enough To Know Blood When I See It
I've Borne My Share Of Stones
Most Of Them Easily Thrown
But Who's To Deny
Your Water-Shed Side
Leading Me Home?
What Am I Supposed To Do About It Now?
Past Regrets And Long Laments They Find Me Somehow
O, What Am I Supposed To Do About It Now?
What Have I To Do But Fall Down?
To Spy From Far Away
May Seem That I'm One To Betray
But O, How I Try
The Spirit To Guide
The Promise You Made
Hold Me Up
Never Let Me Go
Love Me When I Am Broken
And Speak To Me