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Binge Eating... the ugly, the bad, and the good!!!!

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

I need to control my food intake!!!! I am great for a few days, and then I blow it. I got through Superbowl Sunday parties perfectly, and stuck to my food plan, but I lost it on Monday night most likely because I didn't get a lunch break due to a contentious meeting at work. When I got home I was starving, and all bets were off!

I overate on Monday night, but I really did myself in last night. On Tuesday night, I ate a chicken cutlet parm hero and pizza for dinner. This was premeditated as I ordered the food from a local pizza place! I can't even say how many slices of pizza I ate!! I scarffed it down mindlessly, and to make matters much worse, I added lots of salt! If that isn't horrible enough, I also ate almost an entire container of cake frosting. I shoveled it in my mouth until I was ill! It was an ugly sight!

Needless to say when I got on the scale this morning I showed a 6 pound weight gain! It is so bad that I undo all of my hard work in two days with crazy eating episodes! I can't explain why I had this terrible food binge. I have been extremely stressed at work and have had some stress at home, but overall, I was improving in the way I have been managing stress.

The good news is that I have improved in regards to exercise. I have done cardio ( at least 10 minutes) every day for the last 9 consecutive days including yesterday after the binge. After the bing eating, I got in 20 minutes of cardio on the elliptical. This is a positive change because in the past, if I blew it with food, I'd skip the exercise with the attitude being why bother, the damage is done for the day! Therefore, this is one step in the right direction. emoticon
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    Hi, My name is Sue and i'm pretty new to Spark myself but BOY oh BOY did your post hit home with me. Here's my thing....I do awesome all day long. I count all my calories. I eat healthy. I eat the correct portions and make healthy choices and then after dinner when a small, GOOD snack like light ice cream or something I love USE to be enough for me (until 3 days ago) and now every night after I have my "snack" I end up binging on other snacks. I have my ice cream correct portion and DOES sats. me. Then I have at least 2 other snacks. I can't seem to control it. THIS is what got me into my weight issues in the firest place. I have lost 45 lbs and kept it off for 2yrs so I know how to lose weight and keep it off. But over the last few months I have gained 10lbs back. I know I can't keep this up. I tell myself every day that i'll keep it under control tonight. Tonight is the night i will get my binging under control but its not working. Its like I can't control. I"m opeing and shoveling it in....UGHHH, GRRRRR, My binging snacks usually end up containing around 300 calories. I allow for 150 for my snack since ice cream is my biggest down fall. I lost my other weight using this 1/2 cup of light ice cream every night. I know that i need to either take my snack upstairs and eat it and get ready for bed. I just can't seem to do that either. I"M sorry i'm rambling.... :( Just remember that 1 or 2 or even 3 or 4 days doesn't define us.....Just a small set back. You can continue on your journy. Binging dones't define who we are ....This is all a process a very hard learning process. Once you learn something from this binging at this pt hopefully you will not have this issue again. Thats what I need to do. Figure out WHY i'm wanting to bing at night before bed.....Ok, i'm done now. Sorry for yacking your ear off. But I hope I have helped a little.
    3570 days ago
    Good for you for keeping exercising going. Sorry the binge monster had his grip on you. But look at what set it off. What or How can you handle something like this next time. Could you start carrying a snack something high protien with you to tide you over until you get home. Did you maybe need to journal your feelings about something. How about practicing meditation to un wind from that day at work or the stress you were dealing with.

    Affirmation: "I love being the healthy real me"
    Have a good Day
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    3580 days ago
    Hi there - I used to struggle with binge eating too, and I've found a few resources very helpful. So helpful in fact that I haven't had what I consider a binge in 2 years. Sure I overeat sometimes, but there's a difference. I don't know if they'd interest you but here they are:

    1) Inside Out Weight Loss (a free podcast on iTunes - and there's a great SparkTeam for IOWL listeners too)

    2) A Course In Weight Loss by Marianne Williamson

    3) Eat What You Love, Love What You Eat by Michelle May

    4) Anne Cuthbert's website and newsletter (do a google search for Food Is Not The Enemy)

    Feel free to explore some of my own blogs from the past 2 years as I've dealt with this same issue. It IS possible to move past it! You can do it!
    3580 days ago
    It happens to all of us. Don't let it get you down. Just keep on keepin' on and moving forward. You may have two steps forward and one step back and that's OK. Just take one day at a time and renew your committment. YOU CAN DO IT! :)
    3580 days ago
    I'm having the same problem right now. I don't understand it at all but I know it's a mental thing. I lost 62 pounds and then started eating everything in sight all of the sudden. I know success is still possible and I restart myself every day. I think we can get through this if we keep working at it and continue learning about why we binge.
    3580 days ago
    emoticon you can improve it is a big thing that you are able to share on your blog your setbacks...Honesty is important and so is accountablity you have both. emoticon
    3580 days ago
    Each and every second there is always possibility for improvement, you can do this! Messing up one day doesn't define your efforts, push past it and do your best to not make the same mistake twice. Also, the 6 pounds it said you gained was most likely not permanent weight gain, it will probably be gone in a few days with healthy eating patterns.

    I'm not sure what your diet consists of but I do know that when I binged it was because I was trying to be too restrictive.

    Good luck and you can do this!
    3580 days ago
    One step at a time! You can do this!
    3580 days ago
    you should see what i discovered and posted about binge may be of help2u...can't remember if i blogged it or messaged it somewhere as i am new to all this...if i can find it i'll message you
    3580 days ago
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