1/2 way to my goal!!!

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

Ok, so I have not written a blog in FOR-EV-ERRR!!! I have had a lot of stress going on in my life here recently and just plain haven't been on spark like I need to be. So let me try to sum-up a bit of what's been going on in my world.

I set new goals in Feb. and did ok for a little while and then things in my life have just piled up and I lost track. I am trying to stay focused and treat each day like a new day but, it's just not working out the way I planned. I was stuck between 218lbs. and 220lbs. I have been consistantly losing about 10lbs a month but it just didn't work out that way this time. That's ok though because all of a sudden, in 2 weeks, I lost 4lbs. and I am now about 2oz. shy of being halfway to my goal!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYY!!! To think that I have gone so far in just 4 1/2 months blows my friggin mind!

I am wearing scrubs today for work that I am totally drowning in and I have realized that I might need to buy some new scrubs sooner then I wanted to. Not that I don't want to jump out and get new scrubs yesterday just that I really don't have the money to go out and buy them now and then again when I get to my goal weight but seriously people....I'm drowning in these things!!!

Even though I don't want to buy scrubs, I did buy a couple of tops. And can I say how nice it is to walk up to the lady at Lane Bryant and ask, "do you have this in a SMALLER size"? YES! I have gone down 2 pant sizes and went from an 18/20 top to a 14/16! Thank you, thank you! LOL. No, this is not something I am going to run around in all the time just like this. It actually has a cute 3/4 sleeve pink cardigan to go over top of it. SUPER cute!

I also was able to fit into a size 16 dress AND get it zipped all the way to the top even though I am still a size 18 in pants. It's an ugly dress but I just wanted to see if I could fit into it since that was the biggest size.

Anywho, I am very excited about my weight loss but I am still frustrated about my health. I concider myself to be pretty healthy over all but still I can't help but feel like there is something majorly wrong with me. I do have a long list of things that have been bothering me lately and I have been going to several doctors over the last year and a half. At first, the only answer I got was, you're fat, lose weight. Well I have lost 51lbs. so far and in some areas, I feel better but in others, I feel worse!!! It is to the point now where I think I am crazy/nutzo cause everything is coming back negative. I have had blood tests, sleep tests, x-rays, ultrasounds, scans, you name it but still, I have no answers. Now I am waiting to hear back on some bloodwork I did yesterday. I finally took a 2 page list of "symptoms" (things I have now or have had over the course of a year and a half) to my doctor and told her, I didn't care if she thought I was crazy, I just wanna know whats going on. She is testing me for Lupus and Hashimoto's. So far, the tests are all fine but I am still waiting on 2 more tests to come back. I have a feeling they will be normal too. If they are, I will scream people. Is it sad that I want one of them to be positive? Preferrably the Hashimoto's because at least I can pretty much take care of that disease with one little pill that I just so happen to take anyways up until a few months ago. Lupus would really suck but it would also explain a lot. I could live asymptomatically for a long time, or I could die within the next 5-10 years. So yeah, if I had my pick...Hashimoto's please! That's just sad, I know, but at least I would FINALLY know what's wrong and how to fix it!

Well, I'm off for now. That's about the gist of things right now. There is way more then that but not much more that I can really discuss with my online peeps! Not that I don't love you all, just sayin, it's a bit more personal to my family and I and we have to keep it between us. Thank you all for the comments, goodies and smiles you have been givin me. Even if I don't get on spark but for 5 minutes, it's nice to see some of my spark love you all give me. It puts a smile on my face and keeps me coming back even when I feel too busy for spark! Love you all. Have a great week people!!!

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    Thank you everyone! You all are the ones that help me keep pushing harder everyday! I got my other 2 tests back this morning and I was right, they are both normal! AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I have no idea what to do or where to go from here. I can't afford to keep going to different doctors and to keep having test after test when they all come back normal. I am starting to think that I AM crazy! I just wanna lay around and cry all day today but I can't cause I'm at work. The really crappy part is that I only have 1 pateint left on my schedule and it only 10am. I still have 6 1/2 hours or boredom ahead of me and I can tell you now it's not gonna help my mood, only make it worse! I hope everyone else has a great day!
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    Comment edited on: 3/9/2011 10:15:11 AM
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    You look amazing!
    3721 days ago
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    YAY!!! YOU ROCK!! emoticon emoticon Super proud of you!! Keep killin' it, girlie!!! emoticon
    3721 days ago
    You look emoticon , amazing, emoticon . emoticon keep up the great work.
    3721 days ago
    CONGRATULATIONS on your halfway mark - and I'm sorry you feel frustrated about your health issues. I can't say I hope you get a diagnosis, but I understand wanting to have some answers. Good luck with that!
    3721 days ago
    Congratulations on hitting you halfway mark! That is incredible! I hope things are ok for you and that if anything is found that it isn't serious and is treatable. Best Wishes!
    3721 days ago
    Congratulations on making the half way mark on your goal! That is awedome! Hope your health is ok and that things work out...
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    Comment edited on: 3/8/2011 4:51:58 PM
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