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I Have Gained!!

Saturday, March 12, 2011

I have gained knowledge, self confidence, determination, fortitude, an ability to cope with the multitude of problems that we face each day. I have gained the knowledge of nutrition.
What are the right foods and in what combinations are best for me to eat.
I have gained a love for my body. Even with its wrinkles and the law of gravity taking over.
I am in awe of what the body is capable of doing. If you take care of it, it will see you through many years. I have come to enjoy exercise, for with exercise I will insure that my body will take me through the coming years in the best shape I can be in.
All the knowledge I gained was achieved because of an extreme amount of weight loss. So far to I have lost 160 pounds. Today I weigh 173, down from 333. 14 month loss.
Before I started this weight loss process, or as I like to call it a "journey". I had forgot who I was. The old me was buried in a mountain of fat. The fat had consumed me. My thoughts, my personality , they were gone, being replaced with a sad, pathetic person who
could not control her emotions, her life. There was only a facade of living. Each day ran into the next. Each day becoming harder and harder to face. I was only taking up space.
I thank God that my Doctor still had faith in me to change, even if at first I didn't.
But as most of you know after a rocky 2 1/2 month start I got on board with the weight loss program and it's been straight ahead from then on.
I embraced every aspect of this journey. I feel like I have a lot to make up for. I lost about 14 years of my life being obese and morbidly obese.. I know I can never regain those years. But I can try to live the rest of my years in the best health and with a fit body..
That's why I work so hard to get fit and eat healthy. That's why I read articles about nutrition. I read about food groups. What herbs are best for you. What foods burn fat better. Anything that sounds interesting to my life plan, I will read it or listen to it. I have always believed you can never know it all. And you are never too old to learn more.
Gone is the old stereotype of getting old and slowing down. Getting that middle spread and having to ware polyester stretch waistband pants, with flowered tops. Or the tops with birds, or dogs or cats on them. Why do the manufacturers think just because you get older those clothes are appealing.? I could write an whole blog about what I hate in clothes that the manufacturers try to push off on us. Especially the less expensive clothes.
If you are willing to spend big bucks on clothes you can find lovely stylish fashions.
Those styles should be available everyone. Regardless of income or size. OK, enough said.
We do not have to get old and just fade away. We don't have to fit any niche that old people have been put into in the past years . There is nothing stopping you from being just as fit and healthy as you were 20 years ago. It's all up to you. Even those of us who have medical problems, most can be controlled .
It's in your head . If you think of yourself as old and past your prime, you will reflect that in your actions ,your everyday life. . Instead think of this as just another chapter of an interesting part of your life and embrace each and every day. Work at getting fit. Work at eating healthy.
In doing so you might even get off some of those meds. And most of all dress stylish and look good, it makes you feel wonderful and ready for the "NOW" that we are living in.
I am not saying try to go back to 20 or 30 years ago. Just don't age yourself by giving up to old stereotype that life is over at 65 or at retirement. There's no need to sit back in a rocking chair as rock the time away. Unless you like rocking and live on a beautiful lake or beach some where. Then I might join you. Smile!! No really I would be bored to death in no time. I can only take so much vacation at a time. Smile!!
Before I go on , let me say that my prayers go out to the people of Japan. What a terrible ordeal they are having to endure.
It enforces my belief that we never know what the future has in store for anybody. So live your life to the fullest, enjoy each and everyday with your family and loved ones.
Yesterday when I was going to write about my knee injury, I saw the news about Japan and my problems seems so insignificant.
But insignificant or not they do impact me and my life.
I went through some bad hours, pain off the charts, but like I always have before, I came through it. As of today I am 50% better. Hope to be back in the gym on Monday.
I made a mistake of putting heat from the Jacuzzi on the injury at first. it should have been ice. The heat caused the injury to swell and be more inflamed.
I realized it and when I got home I put ice on the knee,then later heat , then ice, kept that up for 24 hours.
Tyson the gym manager used and wheeled office chair to push me to the door so I could get to my car. I could not put my weight on my right knee. Leave it to Tisha to make a dramatic exit. Smile!
By Friday afternoon, with the help of my walker I got to the Doctor and he said I can wait till later for the surgery. But I am moving the date up to May instead of June.
In the mean time I am to continue with ice, heat, stay off it, move it so not to get stiff and it will heal on it's own, Time, every thing takes time.
He will be able to give me cortisone shots later this months, they will last for about 6 or 7 weeks. That should get me to the operation date. Only going to have right knee done this time. I live alone, too hard to manage if I did both knees replacements together.
So in the mean time I am doing lots of exercises here at home.
My day starts out with 50 crunches, 50 leg lifts, 50 scissor kicks. These are for my abdomen and waist. I then work with my bands, can do a full upper workout. The biceps and triceps get a good workout. I do pilates and some yoga. I move the knee so not to let it get stiff. I just can't put my weight on it yet. I limp around the apartment. Use the walker.
I have to buy some water shoes, they are just like an athletic support shoe, but for water.
I had thought the rubber water slippers I was using were enough. But my Doctor said NO.
Just the day before my injury, Margie one of my instructors had told me to get those shoes. She said with the intensity that I work out and all the water jogging I do I need them.
The day of my injury I had planned to go shopping to the Foot Locker to get some.
Now I am going tomorrow. Jim said he will come over to take me.
Speaking of Jim, he offered to come over and clean up the apartment for me. Isn't he sweet?
Today makes the fourth day of no meat, my sacrifice for Lent. I have not missed the meat .
I have been looking at all the recipes that I an make with other ingredients.
This morning I saw a vegetable lasagna and a black bean burger, both sound good and think I will give them a try. And there are so many fish recipes that I want to make, I will never get them all made.
Don't forget to change the clock tonight, remember it's SPRING forward. Turn the clock ahead one hour for day light savings.
Take care everyone. Thank you for all the best wished for my recovery.
Here's what I have been singing through out the day . I feel like it describes what i have been through.
"I can see clearly now the rain has gone. I can see all the obstacles in my way.
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind. It's gonna be a bright, bright sun shining day.
I think I can make it now, the pain has gone. All the bad feeling have disappeared.
There is the rainbow I've been praying for. It's gonna to be a bright, bright sun shining day.
Look all around , there's nothing but blue sky, Look straight ahead, there's nothing but blue sky. It's gonna be a bright, bright sun shining day." Lyrics by Johnny Nash.
Stay strong, be positive, stay focused, Spark on.!
Peace and Love.
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    Thank you for sharing so much of your beautiful self here. Your blogs are inspiring, thoughtful, and full of hope and optimism!
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  • BETHV10
    Hope your knew feels better soon. I know I need to exercise more like you are doing. Currently, I am doing 30 minutes daily on the treadmill. However,I need to increase that. I just have to push myself more.
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  • MEGANBY2011
    I think you have it right. Live life to the fullest - you never know what is going to happen next. Don't be too careful or over conscious. Get out and do all the things you want to do. Kids in wheelchairs wheelchair skate, flips and all it is amazing! The girl in Hawaii serfs with one arm. I think of them and try to reach for anything I want. It makes for a much more rewarding life.

    I hope that your injured leg heals up super fast. Have an excellent day. The kind I know you will! emoticon Megan
    3711 days ago
    I hope you are back to 100% and ready to roll soon!!
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    I really enjoyed reading your blog. Thank you for sharing, because it really gets a person thinking and motivated. You have the best attitude and I know that you will continue to succeed. Best wishes to you!
    3715 days ago
    My friend feed said you had lost two pounds, and then just below it said you posted the blog "I have gained!" I was a little confused until I read the blog. Great inspiration for all of us.
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  • JILL313
    I sure hope your knee feels better very soon--how is other other knee?? I need both knee replaced and will do one at a time when I lose a significant amount of weight. My knees, especially my right one pretty much hurts 24/7. . .You are such an inspiration to me and many others. Like you, I started gaining all this weight when I was going through my divorce and turned to food for comfort and became a "slug". Then, when I hit age 60 a few years ago I kinda gave up on losing weight as it was just too much trouble. Now, at last I feel some hope for me and have to keep trying to get these fat #s off for good. Wonderful bog, thank you!

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    Tisha, you are one amazing sparker and best of all friend. YOUR story and your blogs motivate me. KEEP ON going girl! I am just so proud of you! WOO HOO! I hope you feel better so YOU can be back to tip top program shape soon. Have a joy filled day, Karen emoticon
    3715 days ago
    Both of my knees are working OK right now - but they each have been a pain (they HURT!) in the past. I hope you recover in good shape.
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  • CATLADY_56
    You are awesome! You have gained the best possible things in the world! I am so proud of you. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    I wish I have gained confidince, but that hasn't happened yet.
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    Hi Tisha! I just got back from a "brisk" (as Leslie Sansone likes to say) walk outside, on a rather brisk (cool--NOT fast!) day. But it felt great. And when I read your blog, once again, I am amazed at our similarities: age, starting weight, current weight, thus...weight we have both lost..and both of us, in a fairly short period of time. I have been losing weight for over 18 months, but the first five months, I was not actively trying. Somehow between my July and December check-ups at the doctor I managed to lose 24 lbs., I think mostly by eliminating Pepsi from my diet. Of course that small loss got me inspired and I started to actively work on losing weight, although not all that strictly at first. I mostly just cut out snacks and second helpings at meals. As the pounds continued to drop, I got enthused and started really TRYING to lose weight, by walking (which is MY exercise, I started that about a year ago), and eating really healthy. I make lots of healthy recipes now for the whole family (hubby and 25-year old son still at home), lots of lean beef, chicken, fish, lots and lots of salads (I LOVE salad!), fruits and veggies galore. I have found I crave that stuff now, it all tastes delicious to me! I never thought that would happen. Fat people are notoriously picky about what they eat...I used to be fanatical about how my food was prepared at restaurants and even at home, where I was fixing it myself, never forgo-ing on the high caloried ingredients for TASTE. Now I find that taste is everywhere...fish is wonderful, yummy AND low-fat. I LOVE all fruits, and even veggies, which I used to completely avoid , except for (rarely) green beans. I love broccoli, cauliflower, and all the veggies that go into a salad, especially cucumbers and tomatoes. I especially love stir frys--YUMMY!

    I plan to go into old age kicking and screaming...nobody is going to have to take care of me for a very long time! I turned 60 this year and am healthier now than I was for the last 30 years.

    Aren't you glad that as you go into your knee surgery, you won't need special equipment, large gowns, etc. because of obesity? That was always so embarrassing when I had to have things done medically over the years, usually rather minor, kidney stone treatments mostly, but I was close to 300 lbs., when I had to have a Cesearean section when my third and youngest son was born 25 years ago! I KNOW that would have been easier had I not been so overweight.
    Thanks for all your encouraging words on my page and on my blogs as I obsess over this and that, especially the last few months. I am determined to keep this weight off for the long haul. I don't know what your goal is...mine is getting very close, I had set 160 as my goal a very long time ago. Of course I would (in a perfect world) like to get 5-10 lbs. below that so I have some leeway. When I hit 164 (only 3 more pounds--as of this morning), I will be exactly one half of my starting weight from June of 2009--328 lbs. That is a huge milepost for me, which my actual goal weight close behind that! I am so excited about all I have gained from this journey.. not the least of which is inspiring friends like you.

    Hope your knee feels better soon..keep sparking...keep blogging....keep eating right....and most of all..keep losing!! And God Bless the people in Japan and that area of the world--I hope that is over soon, and that as many as possible of them can stay safe.
    3715 days ago
    What wonderful Gains! I feel the same after only one month, thanks to you and others who are such wonderful inspirations and motivators.

    Fat clothes - yuck! You're right, a whole message board could be filled up on that subject. I can't wait to donate all mine, in fact, I've already started. If it doesn't fit well, it's out of here, never to worn or looked at again.

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