Feeling Gigantically Fat and Frustrated

Monday, March 21, 2011

I cant stand it, for the first time in 6 wks since surgery I am doing more walking and more swimming and not having to sit quite as much and would you believe it, Im PUTTING ON WEIGHT NOOOOOOO, it cant be true,

Also I'm disgusted with myself as I saw photos of myself that were taken at the weekend at the adventure race, and I look like a little roly poly dwarf, I feel like rolling myself down the hill and into the river and drowning.

Why cant i be taller,
Why cant i be skinnier.
Oh why cant i stop moaning

BAD DAy BAD BAD DAY, the only thing that would make it worse is if i ate a lot of rubbish, and i'm not going to I'm going to put on my togs and thrash it out in the pool.

Why is it so hard to work out how to make the scale go down? Am I this person who has to spend super maximum calories and eat super minimum food?
If so please tell me cos I'm going by the sparpeople program andits not happening. HELP emoticon
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    I can only lose weight by eating REAL food. Beware of anything that comes in a package. All of the chemicals, toxins, and preservatives throw your poor little body into crisis. A wonderful book is "The Raw Food Detox Diet" by Natalia Rose. It's clean...but not clean extreme! I was losing a pound a day..seriously. When I go back to junk...I start to gain..IMMEDIATELY! Also...diet sodas and soda's in general are the KISS of death AND they make you crave more food, if you have those in your world...KICK em to the curb! emoticon You can and will do this...I just know you will...you are a fighter supreme! emoticon emoticon
    3734 days ago
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    I just know you're feeling better now, a week later... the hardest part about this journey is that it only happens step by step. But think about where you were, say a year ago! I'm playing a new game with myself... "In six months, _______________ will be ___________." For example, my weight will be lower.
    Maybe you can play along with me?
    3734 days ago
    I've been on this journey a while and didn't really start making progress till I started controlling what I was directing towards to my mouth. Even bodybuilders have a saying that getting buff is 80% nutrition and 20% working out. There are so many great and free podcasts, articles and books devoted to nutrition...the info is out there. So hang in there and you'll become all those things you desire in time. emoticon
    3743 days ago
    Doesn't it suck? I certainly have days when I feel this way. I haven't lost any weight since August!!
    On the other hand...I am eating healthier and I generally feel better...and I am usually in control.
    I don't know about the calorie range that SP sets for me - I can't lose weight with it either...maybe it has something to do with turning 50 and perimenopause...Maybe we just need to be happy we aren't putting on tons of weight?
    I wish I had the answer for you...but I don't...but I can tell you - you are not alone...and I do know that we should continue to persevere - because giving up and going completely to pot is NOT an option!!
    3743 days ago
    What is your body fat percentage?

    Please focus on your strength to weight ratio instead of just your weight. You are an athlete. It's not about weight. It's about performance.

    Consider this offseason training time.

    ...and when / if i get sidelined by an injury or illness, please feel free to send this text right back to me.
    3744 days ago
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    hang in there emoticon
    3744 days ago
    You are so beautiful and I would love to look like you!!

    I found this poem to help you get up out of the blues. I hope it works. Take care of you my darling dear friend!

    When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
    When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
    When the funds are low, and the debts are high,
    And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,

    When care is pressing you down a bit,
    Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
    Life is queer with its twists and turns,
    As everyone of us sometimes learns,

    And many a failure turns about,
    When he might have won had he stuck it out.
    Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
    You might succeed with another blow.

    Success is failure turned inside out,
    The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
    And you never can tell how close you are,
    It may be near when it seems so far.

    So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
    It's when things seem worse, that you must not quit.

    Author Unknown

    3744 days ago
    Based on your tracker, you aren't eating enough to fuel your body properly. Most of the time you are eating 1000-1500 calories and burning 400-800 calories in workouts, leaving somewhere between 200 and 1100 calories for your body to run on the rest of the time. That's really not enough. I bet, if you are using Spark recommendations, you haven't told it (at the bottom of the exercise page) what your weekly expected calorie burn is. I also bet it's complaining on a regular basis about your calorie burns being too much.

    You're probably just retaining a bit of extra water anyway. You should start probably taking measurements and relying on them as much as or more than your scale numbers.
    3744 days ago
    Instead of looking at yourself as a (little roly poly dwarf), take another look at yourself & say thank you for the opportunity to be a beautiful person. Be glad that you do have the ability to change the things that you can & accept things that you can't - such as our height! You have the ability to be a wonderful person & make healthy changes in your life style. Remember one step at a time is all it takes, even baby steps work!

    3744 days ago
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    OK my friend imma need you go to go back to grateful land. BREATH.......
    Your body has had to make a lot of adjustments. Exercise, could not exercise not exercising again. It can take a min for the adjustments. ? are you tracking both intake and exercise? I know there was a time I was having trouble and found out that I was not eating enough. I adjusted and began to loose again. BUT no matter if the scale moves or not WE MUST KEEP doing this!!!! WW talks about NSV non scale victories and I used to shun it. BUT I have had to think about them for that past few weeks because if not I would have quit exercising. If I quit this time I dont know how long it will take to get me back there and I will surely take residence in 170 land. Learn what you need to learn while you are on this step of the journey. YOU ARE A WINNER!
    3744 days ago
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    Recuperating is hard on the body and might be part of the problem. This program works over time. You didn't gain the weight over night and can't lose it that way either.
    3744 days ago
    Don't read my post--I feel the same way! Most of my pictures from the weekend showed me looking like a frog. A tall comely round solid yet flabby frog. I think I gotta quit thinking that one set of pictures defines me. How could I possibly look that bad in one set and look like the one I posted in another set? Must be that time of day or just the mood I was in, or what I was wearing or how it had shifted, or just how bad the cameraman was:) The visual doesn't tell the whole story, does it. NO WAY. Now NO ROLLING INTO THE RIVER! Except to swim of course. I'm sure your swim will get you out of this funk because you are amazing and there is no way your body would let you stay depressed about it for long. You have a great fabulous body and I'm sure you can give it some love--it might not look the best for every camera, but there is a whole bunch of stuff it does right! emoticon
    3744 days ago
    Relax. Maybe you are overthinking it. Get your mind a body focused on moving and being healthy. The weight will find its way off when it is good and ready.

    I went through a period recently where I was super-frustrated because I was doing everyting right and not losing. I just ignored the scale for a bit and finally on the third week I had a huge loss.

    Are you measuring? I've found that on the weeks the scale doesn't move I typically see differences in the tape measure. I'd rather lose that half inch around my waist than a pound or two on the the scale.

    3744 days ago
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    So sorry the darn scale is not responding to your efforts. I know that it will but it sometimes takes a few weeks after to see the results.

    Hang in there and don't be so hard on yourself. What would you tell me if that happened to me? Then try telling yourself the same thing.

    Different things work for different people and what was working for you before the surgery may work for you again in terms of eating perhaps.

    Best wishes for a better day ahead. emoticon
    3744 days ago
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    Blame it all on the full moon!!! Hang in there!!
    3744 days ago
    Hi Friend Take it easy There is no point beating up on yourself that will only make you unhappy. Spark is not a diet its about health and making healthy lifestyle choices. I am also putting on weight - Not fat but muscles because I also could not work out in 3 months after having an opp on my ankle. Also any couch will tell you that if you do excessive exercise and eat very little your body goes into panic mode because it thinks it will never get food again and so you will put on weight. Another really important thing is to make friends with yourself Love who you are right now. That way slowly slowly you will begin to make healthy decisions and as your health improves and you begin to feel better about yourself so you will begin to look better.
    3744 days ago
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