Monday, March 21, 2011
I have NO idea how many times I've started something (like a diet) and stopped! I can reach the 10 lb plateau and the I say "F*** it". Why? I think "I cant do this I'm just going to be fat forever" so F*** it... Right?... Wrong! Who wants to go through life with that kind of attitude?... Who actually GETS through life with that kind of attitude? NOT me NOT anymore! It's going to suck... I LOVE cookout cheeseburgers and french fries... but I also loved my highschool sweetheart... and he was an @$$!!!
I think about how Amy today is WAY different from skinny Amy 5 years ago! I walked into a room and you KNEW it... I was SO outgoing, now not so much! I dont feel good... I dont feel good about myself and I dont like my F*** it attitude. I'm going to say F*** it ONE more time. F*** IT... I'm just going to do it!!!