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Wednesday, March 23, 2011

I got on the scale this morning... which I didnt do before joining SP... I weigh 204 lbs... NEVER have I been this big. I just want to cry... how did this happen? Just last summer I weighed 191... I swear I just keep gaining and rapidly at that! I feel like a total ass... and I feel completely demotivated now!!! It seems like my goal weight is so far away that I'll NEVER make it there... everything just seems impossible today! In 5 years I have gained over 50 lbs... why didnt I start at 160 or 170... 180 even... I let things get way too out of hand... and now everything just seems too overwhelming!! Thats my rant for today... now it's off to a 12 hr day at work... which I'm sure isnt going to prove productive as far as my lifestyle change goes!
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  • MIZZLE2105
    You can't focus on the shoulda, coulda, wouldas. You can only focus on today, right now, this moment. And now you are taking control. You are taking control of your life. You can't think about you have to lose 50 pounds. Break it up into small goals. Focus on the first 10 pounds and then the next. You can do it. emoticon
    3785 days ago
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