Well 2 days to get motivated 2 mins to crash!!!
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
I got on the scale this morning... which I didnt do before joining SP... I weigh 204 lbs... NEVER have I been this big. I just want to cry... how did this happen? Just last summer I weighed 191... I swear I just keep gaining and rapidly at that! I feel like a total ass... and I feel completely demotivated now!!! It seems like my goal weight is so far away that I'll NEVER make it there... everything just seems impossible today! In 5 years I have gained over 50 lbs... why didnt I start at 160 or 170... 180 even... I let things get way too out of hand... and now everything just seems too overwhelming!! Thats my rant for today... now it's off to a 12 hr day at work... which I'm sure isnt going to prove productive as far as my lifestyle change goes!