MRSRAYE

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Trying to start over and I'm halfway to goal!!

Friday, March 25, 2011

I am thinking about starting over from scratch. Going through the fastbreak goals all over again and really trying to get back on track. I have been so worried about hurting after my workouts that I have gone down to only working out 1-2 x's a week! EEEKKKK!!! I can't be afriad to workout anymore. If I hurt afterwards, then I need to just deal with it. If it gets too bad, then I will take a day or two to rest and then start back again. I am hoping that eventually, my body will get used to it and get stronger. It's just so frustrating because my body didn't hurt this bad the first 40lbs lost. Now all of a sudden, it's like, my body is not adjusting to the new weight or something. I have gone to doctors about this and several other things and they either a) don't know what is wrong, b) don't think anything is wrong or c) treat me like crap. I officially just don't care anymore. I cannot allow myself to stay upset, stressed and cry everyother day when no one will help me. It is affecting not only my life but my relationships with other people. I am not giving up completely, but I will no longer stress or get upset whenever a doctor tells me my labs and tests are normal and they can't figure out what is going on with me. So from here on out, until I find someone who can tell me what's wrong, I will just deal with being tired and sore and all the symptoms I have.

I will start over today though with the same goals I originally set for February and then some.

TRACK EVERY MORSEL OF FOOD THAT GOES INTO MY MOUTH
***NO SODA
***NO SWEETS
***PORTIONS ONLY, NO MORE, NO LESS
***TRY TO EAT WITHIN MY CALORIE GOALS (very hard, I am alway under 98% of the time)

TRACK ALL OF MY FITNESS
***CARDIO 5X/WEEK
***ST 2-3X/WEEK
***WALK AT LEAST 3 MILES/WEEK
***TRY TO WORK UP TO JOGGING, THEN RUNNING
***START THE C25K PROGRAM
***ENTER AND FINISH A 5K AT LEAST ONCE THIS YEAR (i know of 3 so far)

GET ON SPARKPEOPLE.COM
***SAY HELLO TO FRIENDS EVERYDAY
***BE MORE SUPPORTIVE TO OTHERS
***WRITE A BLOG ONCE A WEEK
***UPDATE DAILY GOALS
***GET ON MESSAGE BOARDS 1-2X/WEEK
***GO TO TEAM PAGES 1-2X/WEEK
***JOIN AS MANY TEAM GOALS AS I CAN HANDLE
***READ MORE ARTICLES TO LEARN MORE ABOUT FITNESS AND NUTRITION
***PARTICIPATE IN 1 NEW CHALLENGE EVERY MONTH

WATCH THE SCALE GO DOWN AND MY STRENGTH GO UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope that everyone had a great week! Mine has been good and bad but I am trying to learn from the bad and turn it all to good. Happy Losing everyone!!!


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  • MRSRAYE
    Destruct: It's hard to do that though. I want to workout so bad but I am either scared of hurting or I do it and then have to take 2 days off. I can't lose weight if I don't exercise along with eating right. I'm not going to go to the point on injuring myself but if I wake up stiff and have some pain, I don't want to not workout that day either. It's frustrating. I won't ever give up trying to lose the other half of my weight and I won't give up trying to figure out whats wrong. My PCP said she was sorry, she thinks something is wrong but she just can't figure it out and doesn't know how to proceed. Thank you though for letting me know that I still have people here to support me and help me along the way.

    Sarah: Same goes for you. I know that you are always there for me and I can count on you both for support. It seems like we are all at a crossroads but we have eachother and we can definately do this! Have a great weekend girls!

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  • DESTRUCTCUPCAKE
    It's good that you realize that sometimes you have to take a step back to go forward. I am going through a similar phase - having to reassess why I am not doing as well as I was. I would say to listen to your body though. If it hurts too bad, don't drive yourself to be injured. Just take it easy, but don't quit. I believe in you! WE CAN DO IT!!!!


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    I think that you can do anything that you want to do hun! I am right there with you. I have never even left step2. I just have not felt comfortable enough. And I have been working so hard on getting back into the working out and eating right. I know there are NO excuses, but I feel as though I have just had trouble adjusting to my new schedule. Not to mention I feel like I need at least ONE day a week that I can come on SP and spend some significant time catching up with everyone. I am going to try my best to make it happen! WE CAN DO IT!
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