Anybody Seen My Energy or Motivation?
Friday, March 25, 2011
The past few weeks have been rough. Travel on the weekends, a constantly-changing schedule and utter insanity at work have led to fatigue, very few workouts, strength training lapsing altogether, less than perfect nutrition and general crankiness. I am on track to achieve very few of my goals this month and it's too late to do anything about it. For example, I am not going to do 430 fitness minutes in the next six days. Ain't gonna happen.
Not only do I lack motivation, but I'm also incredibly apathetic. I don't wanna, and I don't care that I don't wanna. And this doesn't apply to just fitness or nutrition, either. It applies to work and household chores. All I want to do is rest. (Knitting and reading goals are the only ones I'm set to meet this month.) Yeah, talk about a bad attitude...
I have GOT to snap out of it. I'm trying to just take it one step at a time and do things to keep moving forward. I can knock small things off my to-do list at work and catch up on my reading. Just a few well-placed tasks will achieve a few of my monthly goals. Small things around the house make a big difference. I worked out 2 of the past 3 days, so one cardio and ST session would put the exercise back on track.
But man, it's an uphill battle to find the energy or motivation. Yesterday was a good day; I was back on a regular schedule in every way and was feeling my oats. I was looking forward to a productive, fun weekend. This morning I felt great, too, but a later than usual bedtime last night and two crises at work have utterly drained me. Knowing that I'm heavier than I wanted to be at this point in the year and that I fluffed most of my March goals is frustrating and demoralizing. But not enough to actually spur me into action. Oh wait, I think that's actually the definition of "demoralizing"...
Ugh. Here's hoping a relaxing evening, good food, and a full night's rest - and no alarm tomorrow! - fix me up. If not, I'm asking each and every one of you to stop by my SparkPage on Monday and kick my butt.