Anybody Seen My Energy or Motivation?

Friday, March 25, 2011

The past few weeks have been rough. Travel on the weekends, a constantly-changing schedule and utter insanity at work have led to fatigue, very few workouts, strength training lapsing altogether, less than perfect nutrition and general crankiness. I am on track to achieve very few of my goals this month and it's too late to do anything about it. For example, I am not going to do 430 fitness minutes in the next six days. Ain't gonna happen.

Not only do I lack motivation, but I'm also incredibly apathetic. I don't wanna, and I don't care that I don't wanna. And this doesn't apply to just fitness or nutrition, either. It applies to work and household chores. All I want to do is rest. (Knitting and reading goals are the only ones I'm set to meet this month.) Yeah, talk about a bad attitude...

I have GOT to snap out of it. I'm trying to just take it one step at a time and do things to keep moving forward. I can knock small things off my to-do list at work and catch up on my reading. Just a few well-placed tasks will achieve a few of my monthly goals. Small things around the house make a big difference. I worked out 2 of the past 3 days, so one cardio and ST session would put the exercise back on track.

But man, it's an uphill battle to find the energy or motivation. Yesterday was a good day; I was back on a regular schedule in every way and was feeling my oats. I was looking forward to a productive, fun weekend. This morning I felt great, too, but a later than usual bedtime last night and two crises at work have utterly drained me. Knowing that I'm heavier than I wanted to be at this point in the year and that I fluffed most of my March goals is frustrating and demoralizing. But not enough to actually spur me into action. Oh wait, I think that's actually the definition of "demoralizing"...

Ugh. Here's hoping a relaxing evening, good food, and a full night's rest - and no alarm tomorrow! - fix me up. If not, I'm asking each and every one of you to stop by my SparkPage on Monday and kick my butt.
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    PLEASE be kind to yourself, Jen, and desist from adding to the stress with beating yourself up for being worn out -- the latter state is sending you a plea for rest, recovery and a span of time to recuperate from sheer exhaustion. All the active fitness tools will wait patiently for that. I mean, this may be a passing influenza bug that sneaks back until you rest it into oblivion!

    Believe me and my experience, pushing too hard when truly tired to the point of depressive not-caring can be counter productive. It can lead to health problems more grave than a few pounds and inches. If a week or two of Taking It Easy on Purpose (tell the world and make it a Project -- it's vital) doesn't improve how you feel, then it's time for a check-up to rule out physical issues.

    Your current fix echoes my own at age 28 (nearly 40 yrs ago) when a chronic manageable condition was finally diagnosed, leading me on into GOOD times!!

    Thinking of you, hoping to find you treating your physical and emotional fatigue with what it needs: gentleness, patience, and rest. You will literally BOUNCE back!

    3701 days ago
    You're sounding so frustrated and disappointed. I'm thinking you need to just let go of yesterday, because thinking about what you should have done is only making it worse. Set those goals aside "for now" too, because at this point they're only causing you more frustration. Break it down week by week for a little while until life in general calms down. There's no need to overwhelm yourself on top of everything else. Start today...make a new list of attainable goals...for the week. Goals that will help you relieve some of the stresses and allow you to get back on track. One day at a time girl!!!
    3701 days ago
    I have an unconventional idea.... Don't set your self any weight goals until you FEEL better. Keep in your calorie range, try and keep up the exercise but throw numbers out of the window for a while. If you're down on yourself for not meeting a certain goal it can derail you completely- that's what happened to me last time on SP and I came back 32 pounds heavier!! Maybe for a few weeks try measurements instead of scales, or just don;t measure at all and refocus on the healthy lifestyle changes that just seem too hard right now.
    3701 days ago
    Only you know if you need a kick in the butt or a few rest days to regain your energy. Do what you need to, but don't be too hard on yourself. We can't be ON all the time. Everything in life goes in cycles.
    3701 days ago

    Your motivation playin Hide-n-Seek with mine?!

    I was saying just about the same things about 5 days ago!

    Have your day or two of "I don't wannas" and then get back to it!!!

    3701 days ago
    When I was feeling like this, my therapist asked me to make out a full list of ALL the things I "Don't Wanna" do. Sometimes it helps just to get it all out there. Absolutely everything that you don't want to do - put it on the list, no matter how ridiculous it looks or sounds. "I don't want to put on socks in the morning!"

    Then go back and read the list and you might see a bigger issue with some distance that is causing all of the small "I Don't Wannas" - with me it was an issue at work that once I got help with, made everything else so much better.

    Maybe blog your list and we can help pin point what's really wrong?

    Hope that helps!
    3702 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/25/2011 8:24:30 PM
    Jen, sometimes you just have to get your rest and energy back before tackling big goals. It will happen- for now just take care of you and spoil yourself abit- with some non food rewards. you are worth every bit of it Remember that!!! emoticon
    3702 days ago
    OMG, you have it bad!!!

    But is this where you kick your OWN butt and say, "I'm gonna fake it til I make it!!??!!??

    I'll be by on Monday to see if you can find your motivation and energy this weekend. Hang in there!
    3702 days ago
  • BONJI40
    Hey, I totally understand! We have all been there at one point or another on this long journey. These motivation burn outs come and go. So be gentle on yourself, and remember that you don't have to be perfect. Don't feel bad that you aren't meeting all your goals this month...they are "goals", they are not do or die. Move them into next month and try again. Nothing wrong with that! You stated in your blog the perfect thing to have to just take it a step at a time and keep going. That has been my mantra, and I'm telling you, it works. Sometimes we feel like giving up, but the next day, we just start over again and keep moving forward. That's the way to keep on this journey. You can do it! I have faith in you!!
    3702 days ago
    Oh, the UN-joy of messed up schedules, stress and travel! emoticon And apathy--my friend that one is dangerous! Please, please ask for help if you find that apathy doesn't let up because depression is real but is treatable. But if all you need is a kick in the butt, that I can do IF you kick back! emoticon
    We CAN do this!! emoticon emoticon
    3702 days ago
    I really understand. I am doing 'ok' with my fitness, but not at all with nutrition, and I am having trouble pulling it back together. So, this is a kick in the butt to you and me. We CAN both do this. A lapse is not the end. It is just a way to re-examine our goals and get back on the healthy journey wagon. You can do it!!!! emoticon We can stop and then continue on the right path.
    3702 days ago
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