Having a rough day
Friday, April 01, 2011
I'm so down right now.
I'm stuck in a difficult situation.
My soon to be ex husband is arrgghhhh! He wanted the divorce and it really was hard. My self esteem and self worth is non existant.
Now, hes turning it around on me and asks me to stay in this relationship committed to him but he he already has a fiance. He wants both of us!!!!
His words were.. "I want you to be my wife 100% but I will split my time between the two of you and you have to remain 100% faithful to me".
I already know in my mind he is NUTS if he thinks i'll ever agree to that. My divorce is going to be finalized in a month.
he's making it so hard for me. He comes home most days to our home(we both own it) and he says his only reason for doing so is to see our 4 year old..
I asked him today.. divorce is finalized in 1 month.. u cannot stay here..and he says..well this is my home too and i'll move all my stuff to another bedroom..
LOL We are going to be divorced but living together!! Im so mad..and annoyed and hurt.
Im so over this and he's not letting me go or let me move on. I can move to my parents house but thats alot of change for my daughter and I. But i think at this point maybe that my be best to avoid this situation.
I'm at an all time low. I feel horrible. I feel ugly and I feel like Im going to end up alone. This whole situation puts me down and my ex says stuff like he doesnt think anyone would ever find me attractive because I'm fat.
I dont know what the rest of my life will be like. I feel helpless and desperate.
Please tell me it gets better with time!