Disgusted ... can you say it.
Tuesday, April 05, 2011
Yeah I have to say that I am digusted with myself! I have such a hard time giving up the food that I so need to give up to get my health back. I am constantly saying, I will give that up tomorrow. I can start a diet tomorrow. Well tomorrow never seems to come for me. I have no idea why, but I know that it doesn't..
The true of the matter is that if I don't lose weight I could die and I know that. I don't want to die. I used to be one of those girls who used to say," I will never let myself get that big" . However, even though I may still feel that way, my example of people have gotten heavier as well.
I used to be one of those people who thought that I could do it on my own. I know now that I cannot and that irritates me. I feel like I am at a loss and I have no idea what to do. I know that I need a plan and a quick plamn. However, I know that gaining this weight took along time. I guess that is stands to reason that it is going to take me a while to get the weight off.
When I begin to think about a plan it is so over-whelming that it blows my mind.
I really have no one to buddy up with. You know someone to help me and I help them. I need someone who needs to have me back. I tend to keep up with the person for a bit of tme and then it seems like between the 2 of us we can get busy and lose track. We end up not talking for days and then I am back to where I started, simply beacuse I have no one to be accountable too.
I know that making my lunches would have a vast improvement on my life. It is the time issue that I have a hard time with. I need the extra time. I have to have someone tell me that sometimes you. Not just because having me time is essential. If I wanna live and succeed with my life I need to take the time to exercise more eat less, eat healthy, sleep, drink more water.
You see no all these put together seem so overwhelming and all them are essential to losing weight. I know I am rambling