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Too Much Information. ?????

Friday, April 08, 2011

Usually we want to be well informed. We want to be prepared . But when is the information more than we wanted to know???????
As most of you know i am going to have knee replacement surgery on April 19,.
I have gone over the procedure with my doctor, , and PA. I have discussed the operation with a couple of women I workout with at the gym. I have a general idea of what is going to take place. I have seen the 8 to 10 inch scar in the front of the knee. I know it is going to be more painful than the orthoscopic surgery that I have already had.
In order to better understand the operation, each patient is asked to attend a joint replacement class at the hospital.
I went to the class last Tuesday.
When you are scheduled for surgery, you are given a patient booklet , that has a lot of info in it. You are asked to take this booklet to class with you.
The nurse who lead the class, started going through the information in the booklet.
She also had a model of the knee and it was passed around showing the part that will be replacing our damaged joints. That was a little un-nerving. To see the actual shinny metal piece that is going in my knee. Guess I will really set off the airport buzzer now, with more metal in my body. I already have a rod in my back from a back injury.
As I sat in the class listening to the nurse explain what was expected of us, I felt very confident that I would be a model patient.
But then she got to the dangers of the operation. The one that stands out is blood clots.
They give you blood thinners in your IV to keep that danger down. Also ware compression bandages on lower legs for more prevention. And a nurse will show each of us how to give ourselves shots in the stomach area of a blood thinner once we at home.
Whooo !!!, wait a minute. Did I hear that right? I am expected to use a hypodermic needle and give myself a shot in my belly. Tisha, I think we have a problem.
I do not do needles. Tisha has a fear, a phobia of needles. Just looking at a needle, and I get light headed and fell like i am going to pass out.
Just this week I took Titan in to the vet to have his shots, I could not look at the needles laid out of his shots. I was so glad the nurse held him while the vet gave him the shots.
I just took deep breaths and looked away. So relieved when it was over.
So to be informed that I have to do the shots was more information than I needed or wanted to know. They say ignorance is bliss.
So I went home more anxious than before the class.
I was feeling stressed, could not get my mind off that image of me giving myself a shot. I almost passed out thinking about it.
I was not sleeping, having bad dreams, waking up in a cold sweat.
At one point I wanted to eat everything, but my better sense prevailed and I didn't. Then when I did fix my dinner, I couldn't hardly eat, just pick at my food. .
I was besides myself with this business of needles, shots and me doing it.
My daughter has so much on her plate. Just getting over her own surgery. Her sons. hip operation, it's hard to expect her to look after me too. My son in law is fearful of needles too, so he's no help. Then there's Jim, my loving sweetie, who has offered to help me.
But he lives in Lake Oswego, a little distance from here. Though I am sure if I need him here he would come a running. But I am independent , I want to take care of myself. I am not used to relying on others. But I finally talked to Jim about my dilemma , and of course he said no problem. He's an old hand at giving shots. His late wife was diabetic and had to have shots.
I also saw my daughter today at the orthopedic center ,. where my grandson was getting his post op check up. She told me, don't worry about the shots, she will come over and give them to me. Plus help me with anything else I might need done.
So you would think that settles that issue.? Well it does in a way. But I still think it's time for me to conquer my fears and step up to the plate and take care of myself.
If I get a bee sting I go into apoplectic shock. I have a kit on hand to get a shot if I need it.
I have only had to use it once, and someone else was there to give me the shot.
But now I am going to get the kit out and open it up and take the needle out and get used to it.
Well I am going to open the kit. Taking the needle in my hand might take a few days. I have 10 days before I go to the hospital.
I told the PA , doctors assistant today that I was going to overcome this phobia once and for all. She said she thinks I will. Of course she would say that. You don't tell someone they are going to fail .
So wish me luck. this time I really need it. I don't want to sound like a big baby, but maybe I am. I am a dare devil in so many ways. But with needles, I have a ways to go.
Which brings me to. When is there too much information.?
Am I glad I know about the shots ahead of time? Not really. But since I do, I have to address the issue. Would I have rather found out the day after the surgery in the hospital?. Probably yes.
Most time when faced with something that is daunting, a person steps up and performs better than expected. Sometimes showing unusual strengths and courage.
Of course I could have freaked out and then someone would have had to step in and help me.
If I had not known, I would have not had this added stress and anxiety. Then on the other hand I might not have ever tried to overcome my fear. It's fifty, fifty.
My plans for going to the hospital and afterwards are all made.
Titan is all ready to go to the Doggie hotel for a short stay. I have his things packed.
Today I got the rest of what I need for my hospital stay. My bag is packed.
For about 4 days I will not log on to Spark. I will break my perfect attendance. But it can't be helped. I don't have a phone app. Besides I think I will have other things on my mind for a while. Spark will be there when I get home and feel like getting on the computer.
So dear Spark friends, you take care .
Peace and Love,
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  • MT2021
    OK, you can do this. I am afraid of needles too, but thinking about it, I would be more comfortable if I was doing it myself.

    Good luck on the surgery. emoticon
    3680 days ago
    Giving myself a shot...not sure I could handle that either. I did give my d-i-l a shot in her stomach about a year ago, she was trying to get pregnant, had something to do with hormones. To get a grandchild--I could give a shot!! (it didn't work emoticon ) But to give one to myself....not sure about that. Good luck, hope you can get over your phobia. Just wanted to let you know I sympathize!
    3684 days ago
  • TISHA80
    I'm not sure I could give myself a shot, either. I think it's good to try to overcome your fears, though. I am planning some things to work on my fear of heights. Being successful at living healthier makes me more confident that I can overcome other things. Good luck!
    3685 days ago
    I have faith that you will be able to overcome this fear.
    3685 days ago
    Hmmm...when I had my hip replacement, a home health nurse came to the house and gave me those shots. You might see if your insurance will cover that.
    3685 days ago
    The needles are very short and fine. I had to do exactly this for about 5 months because I had blood clots. I also thought I could not do this but it was either this or go to doctors or hospital every day for the shots, so I thought I had better do it. I know it is hard to think about giving yourself them but it really does not hurt.

    Find out if you can do them in the leg because I ended up with lots of bruising on the stomach. The top of the leg was a much better option.

    I now have to give myself a needle every fortnight for another problem.

    I hope this helps.
    3685 days ago
    I am deathly afraid of needles! I say if Jim is willing, let him. But just be prepared if you have to do it yourself sometime. emoticon
    3686 days ago
    I always look the other way and shut my eyes - I can't imaging sticking myself with a needle in the stomach. Maybe the thigh -- I would take Jim's offer if it has to be the stomach. I can't believe that you have to do it yourself. I have given shots to our dogs, and they don't seem to mind, so probably someone could help you.
    3686 days ago
  • IONA72
    Hope all works out ok for you, wish I had the magic answer to needle phobia.. But alas... Stay strong!
    3686 days ago
  • no profile photo CD6953317
    You are a WOMAN! And THAT means you CAN do whatever you HAVE to do when the time comes!!!!! There have been many, many times in my life when I was afraid of something, but when push came to shove, I did what I had to do to survive. I have complete and utter faith that you will get through this!
    3686 days ago
  • BETHV10
    I know you will do it! Good luck!
    3686 days ago
  • JILL313
    Hi Tisha, I read your blog with special interest as I need both my knees replaced. I have friends who have had their knees replaced very successfully but truthfully none of them has told me about the shot part . . .I'm also a Scary Cat as don't like needles . . .However, quite recently I actually was able to give myself a shot in my upper arm but this new diabetes non-insulin drug made me nauseated and then I read online that this drug (Victoza) has only been on the market since January and it caused thyroid & throat cancer in rats and mice--I immediately decided not to be a guinea pig and stopped it. But, the point is I was able to give myself a shot and I honestly didn't think I could--but I could and did! I'll bet you can do it too. . .How many days would you have to get the shots after your surgery? It's good you have friends & family willing to help you if you need them to! Take Care Dear Friend and I know you'll be so happy you had the surgery . . .You are Awesome!!


    3686 days ago
  • no profile photo DIASTER
    If it is any help to know the needles are very fine and very short. Wish I lived closer would be glad to help but know you will conquer this as well as you conquered the weight.
    3686 days ago
    You can do it! I have faith in you.

    3686 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8667808
    Tisha, I just wish you the best, speediest recovery. I think it's a great idea to accept help with the shots and take your time getting yourself comfortable with them.
    We'll be thinking of you!
    3687 days ago
  • DIANE7786
    I'm also freaky about needles. They are not a "little pinch" to me. Even reading your blog made me feel anxious. My doctor gives me a prescription lidocaine cream, EMLA. Apply it an hour before the shot to numb the skin. You won't feel the needle poke your skin, but you might feel the medicine going in. Good luck with the shots and your surgery.
    3687 days ago
  • no profile photo CD7547131
    I have the same problem!! And I am also allergic to bees, so I also have to give myself a shot...instead, I just stay indoors and avoid the bees at all costs. But yeah, needles totally, totally TOTALLY make me pass out and/or dizzy. So does blood...but I've managed to grow a tolerance, somehow.. I never usually tell people this fear because I work at a hospital (but there's a reason why I do the PAPERWORK and not the patient care!) ...Once my friend told another nurse and he started teasing me by waving them around at me. I ended up kind of crying and then he stopped, like, wow you really are serious, aren't you? Uh, DUH. Sometimes I have to take blood samples to the lab. It freaks me out, usually, but I've gotten better.
    In regards to needles, I tell myself they are safe, they're clean, they are necessary. (something like that) I've never had to give myself an injection, but I've had blood drawn and other instances where I'd need to have a needle. I can hardly handle it when my son gets a vaccine. (guess who never gets her flu shot? this chick) I'm basically on the floor over his vaccines and can hardly keep it together.
    Other things I tell myself are like, It can't hurt you. You have control, it's an inanimate object...
    Or I just get mean to myself - stop acting like an idiot, erin.
    I dunno if that will help at all, but it might help knowing you're not alone! If someone else is giving you the shot, stare at something on the wall, a picture, a crack, something, and make conversation. Tell the person ahead of time to keep talking to you and really try to keep your focus on their conversation - make it about something non-healthcare-related, like, about your pets, or the weather, or your favorite vacation spot. It helps me for me NOT to know when they're about to stick, but that's just me.
    Good luck and you're going to be okay!!!! I promise!!
    Hang in there!!
    3687 days ago
  • FROSTY99
    Tisha you can do this. I too was once scared to death of needles, in fact I would faint when one came at me and just the smell of alcohol would make me ill but I was married to a diabetic and had to get over it as I had to give him his shots when he was too sick to do it. Poor man, when I 1st started doing it, I would stick him, then pull it back out without injecting him so he would get stuck twice. His dr was patient and stayed on the phone to talk me thru this a coupel times and I got quite good. Recently had to give injections to a friend who had foot surgery and like you had to have them to keep from getting the blood clots. So you can do this, but glad you will have help and support. Good luck with surgery and will say some extra prayers for you.
    3687 days ago
    I also have a needle phobia. When my kids had to get shots, I could not watch. I can't look when my blood is being drawn.

    It's not blood itself, just the needle.

    I wish you luck on your quest. I would have preferred to know ahead of time so I could find someone to do it for me. I am independent too, but not with needles. No ma'am.
    3687 days ago
  • no profile photo CD3691471
    Good luck with your surgery. I think that once you have to give yourself the shots, you'll be able to do it. The alternative is pretty scary stuff (blood clots), so that should be some motivation. And if all else fails, you really can't do it, take advantage of the help that is being offered to you.

    Take care.
    3687 days ago
    I think you will! Good luck to you!
    3687 days ago
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