Ever want to just throw in the towel?

Sunday, February 11, 2007

I have lost and gained back the same weight for years now. For some reason, my body just WANTS to be 175-180. I never go much higher than that when I am there no matter how I eat. But getting thin is SUCH hard work for me and what makes me angry is that I DO gain weight "overnight". "They" say that you need to be patient while dieting because it took you a long time to put it on, so it's going to take a while to take it off. I say, POPPY-COCK! And I don't even use that word! LMBO!

I just know that if I don't work out as hard as I am working now and eat the way I am eating now once I reach my goal, I am going to gain it all back again. It's just the way life is for me. My eating habits were not all that bad. Sure, I can most likely not eat ice cream before bed so much, but that was never a daily habit. I ate out maybe once or twice per week...I can put that on the back burner, too. But for the most part, my eating habits were pretty healthy. It must be my cooking. I love to cook and will say that I am quite good at it, but my food consists of lots of fattening things like cheese and butter. Even with that, though, I at pretty balanced. Breakfast was always cereal or toast, lunch was always lean meats and veggies on whole wheat bread. Dinner was never fried. Yet the pounds just pack themselves on. My body needs to nearly be starved in order to lose and maintain weight loss. It's SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO frustrating and it scares me to think that I will gain all the weight back again after I lose it.

So, somedays I just want to say "screw it" and throw in the towel. Why bother, right? But I know that this healthy eating is doing more than providing weight loss and I love how my clothes are starting to feel. I keep telling myself that the last stage of Spark is what is going to help me maintain my weight loss and that makes me want to set a one year goal of keeping the weight off. I won't jump off the wagon because my increased energy is helping me keep up with my kids.

I can-and will-do this.
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    You can do this! Every little thing you do will help get you on your way. It is hard work but it does get easier when it becomes a way of thinking and a way of life. Remember that we sometimes have to take a step backward before taking two steps forward. There are some great SP articles on "Measurements besides the scales" which have some great info. You can and will do this! Good luck and we are all here for you.
    5203 days ago
    I can relate to the way you feel. I SO want to get down to the 140's but it seems my body is stuck in the 170's. I saw the 160's for a short time but freaked out and gained 8 lbs. Now I am working my butt off to lose those 8 lbs. I WILL lose it!!!

    YOU will do it also. Just keep working at it!
    5204 days ago
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