A Plateau of My Own Making (aka: Self Sabotage)

Monday, June 27, 2011

This past week I let my eating habits slip up. I gained a few pounds (which I lost again).

Honestly, sometimes I think I sabotage myself and I have no idea why. I have been working out a lot and I'm seeing results in my body! My arms, while still flabby, have more muscle definition and my ankles and calves are positively adorable! Well muscled and defined! Heck, I can see my clavicle bones for the first time in my memory! But my clothes aren't much looser and I haven't lost much weight.

I think I am afraid to lose weight sometimes. I'm so close to having lost 50 pounds AND getting under 300 lbs but every time I get close, I screw it up. I'll have no real barriers to living life (traveling, playing tennis, dating, etc...) once I've lost weight and maybe I'm afraid to be there. Eating foods that are bad for me is a crutch, and I know an emotional safety blanket. Intellectually I know that, but I still find myself sometimes finding an excuse to eat something I know I shouldn't.

For me, this weight loss journey isn't about struggling to work out, its about struggling to eat foods that provide me with energy and life, not more empty calories. Here on Sparkpeople, I see folks who struggle trying to find time to work out and I thought that would be me too. But I found back in August I LOVE to work out! I really love being active and working on a college campus, I have access to an awesome gym and for $50/semester, I can take classes too (Hello Zumba, you are so so so fun!).

But the eating thing is what I struggle with every. single. day. I love to eat. I love things that taste good. I also work pretty long days at work and its easier to pick up something on the way home than it is to go home and cook. I need to be better at cooking multiple meals at a time. When I'm on a good kick, I'll cook up some healthy meals (chicken, veggies, brown rice) and have 4 or 5 meals out of it! I need to get back to that because when I do, I SEE results instantly.

I don't have trouble losing weight when I'm making the right decisions! It comes off gradually and healthfully like its supposed to. But I have trouble making the right decisions sometimes...

What strategies do you all use to beat self-sabotage? I need a little inspiration here.

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    Here's the thing that has worked for, me... I LOVE to eat, too! However, I have worked really hard on making healthy food taste amazing! I will never be one who loves a small handful of almonds for a snack (although I shouldn't say NEVER, you never know) but i have put a ton of time in figuring out what I can eat that I love and crave and fits in my calorie range. :)
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    You're not alone! These past couple of months have been self sabotage. I think your technique (making meals ahead of time) is what works best for me. I'll make a huuuuuuge pan of chilli or spaghetti sauce and then bag it up in portion sizes throughout the week. When I make meatloaf, I make two and freeze one. That way, during the week when I get busy and don't have time to whip up a meal from scratch, I still have something healthy and delicious with no effort.
    3610 days ago
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