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Week 3...starting to drift.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

This past week has been a struggle. I don't know why. I am determined to get back , but that evil voice is starting to whisssperr.

My problem wasn't that I ate all the time, it was what I ate when I finally remembered to eat. *psst--there are Lay's on the counter. You know you love them. Come on, you haven't really eaten all day, so the whole bag won't hurt you*
I don't know if SP reset my calorie goals, or if I did it with out knowing, but I went from 1200-1550 calories per day to 1400-1750 calories per day. That threw me off. I average about 1375 calories a day, but I work to make them good calories. Moving my minimum to 1400 was stressing me, I felt like I was forcing myself to eat, and I was eating just to gain calories, not to satisfy hunger, or meet nutritional needs. That is not a good pattern and it led to going over my fat goals and under my fiber goals. So I reset my calories back to the lower range. Psychologically, it's easier for me to try for the upper end of that range, than to go for the lower end of the other.

I am an excellent procrastinator, I learned from the best, my Mom. *Exercise....okaaay.... we can walk, we'll go in an hour....just after I watch this show...okaaay, shows done, but I gotta check Farm Ville/Cafe World/ Zoo World, first. My crops/dishes/animals will wither/spoil/go hungry if I don't take care of them right now...Okay, let go...Oh, it's dark out. I guess we can walk tomorrow...*
I have managed to either walk or ride my bike every day. I feel good when I get back. Well I decided to try something new. In my Blog "Because it was on sale" I explained about getting and using EA Sports active 2. I think it can be a good resource, but not at this time. I will try again in a Month, but right now, It is causing more harm than good. The program I tried had me hopping and jumping a lot. There is a reason I Ride or walk, instead of run. I tore the tendon that supports the arch of my left foot about three years ago. I had it repaired, but I have to be careful. That foot is prone to re-injury, and running is not a good idea. Well, neither is a lot of hopping and jumping. Between my foot and my quads, the jumping was from a crouch to a crouch, I was in tears Friday.
Saturday, I broke my exercise streak. Friday, I was supposed to work day shift, but they called me off at 5am. I decided that as soon as it was light out, I would take my walk. I struggled, but finished my walk, showered and took some Ibuprofen. I called work at 9am to see if they needed me at 11, and ended up with the whole day off. I decided to take a nap. When I woke, I could barely make it down the stairs. I worked Saturday, day shift, So I planned to walk after work. I almost tripped on my own feet twice walking from the bus stop, it hurt that much to walk. I prudently decided to rest. I did feel better on Sunday, worked, walked after work, no major pain. Still feel like I screwed up.

I have a dirty little secret. *You need one...just one for now...It'll calm you down, help you relax...there you go, inhale, hold, release slowly...feel the rush...ahh.*
Yes, I smoke cigarettes. I have struggled with them since I was in my early teens. I have been working on slowly cutting back, with the goal of quitting entirely. I was having some success, but stress is one of my major triggers. Will continue to work on it, and hopefully I can finally break the habit.

Now my weigh in today. No loss this week, even a .2 lb gain. *See, no use in doing this, all you get is pain and no gain. Just give up*

Thank you Shelby, for your Goodie. A Rainbow is a sign of Luck and Blessings. It helped quiet that voice. Thank you Lorienabanana for your Blog "Tell yourself that you are AWSOME!!" It has helped the soft voice of encouragement speak a little louder than the evil voice of self doubt. Thank you, every one. It helps me drift right back where I need to go. I was able to remember the jeans I wore yesterday were a little loose; I did my best time on yesterdays bike ride; there are other exercises I can do that won't hurt in the bad way.

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