So bad at this blogging :)
Saturday, August 06, 2011
Just wanted to say I am still around and focused on my goal! I haven't given up I promise :) Actually getting closer only 13 pounds away! The struggle I am having now is that will I ever be satisfied when I get to this goal. I am having a really hard time seeing myself as smaller. I see the same size as when I started this journey almost a year ago. When I stopped and looked at the numbers I have actually lost 49 pounds. That sounds like a lot of weight to me! But, why can't I see it... I honestly see the same girl as before. I had one of my skinny friends tell me this week that I need to stop worrying about losing weight now that I dont have any fat left to lose. (I laughed at her on that one) She said that I just need to go to the gym now and focus on firming. I do agree on the second part of her statement. Maybe it is truly time to commit to the gym and that will help me see myself differently. I adjusted my schedule at work so that I can get off a little earlier. The PLAN is Monday I will get over my fear of going to the gym alone. I dont fear working out. I know I can do that. I am just so self conscious it's rediculous. IWish me LUCK everyone :)
I do hope all of you are having a happy & successful weekend!