Knockout gorgeous dresses coming my way
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Foggy weeks of discomfort came to an end two weeks ago. Surgery for gallbladder removal finalized the cycle. Thank goodness! Starting to feel a bit better prompted a night out for our 11th anniversary. I wanted to feel like a sultry sexy bombshell despite my four abdominal incisions. My husband was taking me to the foundation room on top of Mandalay Bay then to Phantom of the opera. First stop was the internet. I found a few places to rent a dress. One of them even made you sign up (for free) to even look at dresses...come to find out they did not carry plus size. Next stop was Macy's at the fashion show mall. Beautiful evening gowns. Rarely over size 12. Sigh. I ended up finding a black dress with matching black bolero at Burlington. And while I thought it was very flattering and very pretty when the glitter caught the evening light i still couldn't help thinking that my whole life I had never once been able to buy a stunning dress because I was in love with it. With the texture, contour, fabric, waistline, beautiful color and perfect neckline. No my friends. I have only been able to buy dresses that "fit". We had a wonderful time there's no doubt about that. But there was doubt present. My self doubt. Will I ever get there? Will I ever succeed? Will I ever stop letting myself down? I think that may be possible. Happy thoughts need to drowned my brain like the ocean to a submarine. Cheers to all the knockout gorgeous dresses coming my way!