bittersweet

good news and bad news- lets do the bad news first.
bad news- I didnt count calories all weekend blah blah blahhhhhhhhh
good news- one of my friends actually noticed that my servings are MUCH smaller and she said she was proud of me b/c I only ate a plate of food at the bbq
I'm no longer one step forward, three steps back... I'm more like a one step forward, 1/2 step back.
So am I proud- not necessarily... Am I beating myself up? Heck no
I am just starting to realize this is going to be an ongoing struggle. Even when I lose weight I am going to have to battle my inner fat voice. Lol by the way- I named them this weeked.
"Fierce" is my inner fit voice

"Flava" is my inner fat voice.

I had to name them because the better I do the more I hear both of them battling it out.
Don't judge me!