Quitting while I'm ahead. Sort of.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Went for a 4 mile run today, which ended up being a 2 mile mostly walk. I'm glad that I got out there and tried running for the first time since my disastrous 12.5 mile run last Sunday (see last week's blog). And I'm proud of myself for ending it early when my knee started to hurt.
But, I am still having a hard time accepting that I will not complete my planned half marathon October 16. My DH and completed it last fall by walking and I was looking forward to running most of it this year. But, with only 3 weeks to go and me unable to go more than 2 miles without pain, I don't see how 13.1 will be possible.
So, I am reluctantly, sadly giving up my HM goal. I fear that if I push myself too hard I will cause long-term or permanent injury. And I will set up an appointment to see a sports medicine doctor as soon as possible, as many of you have wisely suggested.
Although I am quitting the HM training, I am not giving up on running. DH suggested that we walk the HM, but I can't bring myself to do that. Beyond the fact that even walking 13 miles could result in further knee injury, I feel like I have turned a corner. I am not interested in just walking anymore. I want to run! And if all I can run for now is a 5K, then that is what I will do as soon as my knee is fully healed.
Instead, I will focus on building strength and flexibility and losing more weight, which I'm sure will improve my ability to resume HM training in a few months. My mind is ready for the HM, but my body is not. As Coach Nancy says - respect the distance! But it will happen - I will nail that HM sometime in the not too distant future.
Thank you all for the continued support. I could never have come this far without the encouragement, experience, and wisdom of my SP friends. And I won't make it through the next 5K, the next 10K, or the next HM without you.
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  • TREV1964
    With an attitude like this you WILL get there - sometimes in life we have to be a little more patient. If you push too hard before you are ready you could end up doing permanent injuries and in my book a delay is far better than permanent no matter how long that delay is.

    Even if you are moving through everything slower or even if you have stopped you are still facing in the right direction and you still have the drive to do this.

    See you at the winning post.


    2870 days ago
  • -SHAWN-
    GF I think building strength and flexibility is key to health! I'm not sure about running and marathons though... I don't think my 21st century body cares for the 'jarring', especially now in my 50's. Plus think I'd have to have a double mastectomy before I could attempt to

    I hope you heal, and if you decide to continue on with this particular dream that it brings you all you're hoping for.

    I agree with TRANSFORMED123, this is NOT you quitting!
    3027 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13798337
    That's not quitting since an injury forced you to stop. Instead of wallowing in self-defeat you've chosen to address the problem and keep going. You're a real go-getter!
    3045 days ago
    I see it as a goal that you'd set to encourage you to stay on your journey. But your actual journey (health, body awareness and great self-care) actually continued at full pace! Now your goal to stay on the journey is to learn about recovery and how to work with that idea! You can definitely circle back to this one if it compels you and you learn what you need to about that knee.

    I experienced a recent disappointment, too, with having to run a paid-for race after/during illness. I know how it feels, and how you have to comfort yourself about it.

    3524 days ago
    Btw, I love your background photo! I used to live in Fort Collins, Colorado and this reminds me of the foothills of the Rockies. Beautiful, Ann!

    Thanks for the inspiration!

    Susan emoticon
    3600 days ago
    First, disappointment sucks. I know that's a "duh" comment. It's true. Accepting the fact it sucks is important. Second, realizing that your recovery will be further away if you try to push it is important as you're protecting yourself from further injury and giving your knee time to heal.

    Third, compliment yourself. Look where you started on this journey and where you are now. This is a side track for sure. Half the battle of what each of us is trying to accomplish is knowing when to back off and give rest and recuperation.

    Fourth, you've obviously figured this all out on your own. I'm just good at restating the obvious! If I had to be superhero, I would be Restater of the Obvious!

    I'm glad you shared your blog too because it's an important topic that we each need to remember. Dealing with the disappointment is not easy.

    Have a great day!

    Susan emoticon emoticon
    3600 days ago
    I wouldn't classify it as quitting, since you're still moving. Go see the sport doctor and get a diagnosis of what the problem is. Hope you get answers that help you return to running.
    3600 days ago
    emoticon The important thing is to keep on moving.
    3600 days ago
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