body.mind.soul gps / 10.04.2011 / 0041

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

body.mind.soul gps
10.04.2011 / 0041

Body: Ran this morning. It was a good one. Just taking it slowly with the body right now. Acknowledging that it is important, but learning it is not THE IMPORTANCE of my life.

Mind: Even writing this blog makes me anxious and guilty. I am going back and forth right now between being sure the break is what I need to feeling like a bad person for taking one. I know the “enlightening me” is saying the break is what I need, and the needy scared girl inside is the one saying it’s not. I know which one I need to listen to but I also know which one has been talking longer and more incessantly. It’s hard to make that transition over to a new voice and give it the authority that the old one has. But I know I have to if I want to truly love this person, and find inner peace, that ability to just be with life and existence and all its ups and downs and not always be grasping and needing something else to keep me going, to distract me. I want true freedom, not the illusion I’ve been envisioning as freedom.

Soul: Also in upheaval right now. Just holding on to the knowledge that this is just a rocky part of the road and that if I ride it out, and take the experience in, that I will get to a calmer place when it’s time.

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    Sounds very wise my what yo need to do..we will be here when you return!...thank you for the blog it really touched me espcially the needy me..never thought of it like that!take care of yourself love!
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    time to listen to your inner voice to guide you instead of everyone else's..yes that absolutely is a lovely idea. Come back soon but i Hope you get what you need from your time off. emoticon emoticon
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