This is it...I've shared it before...my trusty LIME toolbox, storing all of my valuable resources that will most definitely assist me in reaching my goal of a permanent, healthy lifestyle!
My valuable resources are diverse and many....Here's what's inside:
*My list of goals, and reasons for them
*My "JUST IMAGINE" benefits to getting healthy and fit..."Just imagine being confident with my size"; "Just Imagine being able to wear...."; "Just Imagine not fearing embarrassing comments or photos"; "Just Imagine being content with your body"; "Just Imagine being freed to know you can do anything in life with your family without avoidance""Just Imagine not having to even THINK about whether or not you will fit in that booth, or seat on the amusement ride" "Just Imagine climbing into a paddle boat without fear of it leaning so far to one side, while your daughter passenger looks like she is airborne"...ETC!
*My many, many DVD's, CD's and Books on spirituality, meditation, prayer, music, exercise, weight related articles, philosophies, and theories.
*My previous journals reflecting sadness, despair,frustration, and feelings of being a failure; and each entry attempting to start over.
*My CURRENT journal reflecting determination, motivation, optimism, and hope!
*My charts, graphs, and timelines
*Inspiring stories from others who have succeeded, not just with loss, but with maintenance of loss
*The support from my family, blessings of many friends in the 3D world, and all of my dear sparkfriends!
*Many previous failed attempts and what I have learned from them...we cannot succeed without mistakes, failures, and set-backs along the way (GREAT tools if we make use of them)
*Lots of lean protein, freggies, healthy carbs, healthy teas, vitamins, and lots of water
*Exercising in my fat-burning zone...no more long term anaerobic exercise!
*Prioritizing and enabling a healthier sleep pattern
*VISION of a healthy me! Very important! "Seeing" what I am working towards!
*Reminders of the extra little perks that I will look forward to, once goals are met
*Personal and professional goals and practices in place in natural health and wellness!
*A nurturing plan for my creative self
*A well thought out "Prioritizing plan for ME", which enables me to succeed.
*A pair of respectfully sized jeans, maybe size 12, and a wardrobe that reflects who I am instead of what can I fit into. I miss fashionable clothes, and the feeling that goes with wearing something that actually compliments me.
Even before the challenge started, and ever since, I have been working very diligently on keeping myself in check...no excuses allowed. I am working especially hard to boost a dead metabolism and accept/control hormonal effects, and to do that, I HAVE to be serious about my efforts. For ME (and every BODY is different) I was eating way too many carbs, too much sodium, too much sugar, and not enough protein. I am tweaking as I go, learning what works best for ME. I am eating healthy, not depriving myself, but chartering my foods for lean content. My carbs are always the healthy carbs, but fewer than I had been eating. Food, metabolism, and our bodies...it's a chemistry experiment for sure...it takes alot of prep time (about four months for me to research all areas of concern and philosophies, find the common thread for my body type, and practice it).
I have never, ever, EVER put this much time and energy into solving the "why's" of how my body processes, and why. It is going to be a continuing ed for me for the rest of my life. I am learning, and I am seeing progress. In all areas of my life, I am just being open hearted to what is meant to be, and letting things unfold...
This current Lime challenge weigh-ins show that I am progressing. I am learning, I am seeing results. I just take it one meal at a time, one day at a time, one week at a time. I have had way too many failed attempts in weight loss to not lose sight of the fact that making a bad choice is always one cookie, one chip, or one piece of candy away. I know that is true for me...for staying diligent, 100% conscious at all moments so that if I PLAN to have a cookie, or a chip, or a piece of candy..."I"stay in control, enjoy it, but not letting it take me to a point of oblivious eating.
So, yes, I feel good about my losses, not only this challenge but prior to. Moreso, I feel good about my dedication, and keeping the constant reminder that there will be mistakes, and to just love myself enough to move passed them quickly and with increased knowledge.
I hope and plan to have continued steady progress...even though the numbers for loss are sure to slow down, and I need to reload my tool belt with extra supplies from my lime tool box, so that I am armed and ready. My exercise routine has not been consistent enough, and I really need to increase it...I have been more focused on my nutritional intake and toning, but that is my plan for the second half of this challenge.
Wonder Woman is never really unprepared...unlike some other super heroes, she really uses the basics to combat any evil forces. Maybe that is why I chose her as my icon...I have to be able to just use the basics, and presence of mind to really fight this battle.
Maybe the timing of ME has to do with turning 50, and other critical events that were difficult and painful this past year...where I finally realized that we really get ONE lifetime and I don't want to be 60, 70, 80, or more still planning to lose weight and get in shape! As we age, there will be health issues, and I don't want weight to ever be a cause of a disease, or a complication in curing a disease.
I want to enjoy the second half of my life with full engagement especially with my family, and I am adjusting my priorities to INCLUDE me on the list too...instead of being just a people pleaser, and in the outside world there were some people that I thought were some of my friends that disrespected me where I actually felt their feelings of superiority...I let them make me a victim because I was so hurt, but the difference is...THIS TIME I learned from it! You can only be a victim if you let yourself be...a victim even in the smallest ways...emotions, superior attitudes, subtle ways to belittle you...don't take it! EVERYone is special, and has something to offer. I needed to validate myself...which was not something that happened overnight...but it happened, and I feel free...I can BREATHE! :) I am so lucky to have supportive family and many other friends, that really feel empowered when they see me taking care of myself! It's a great thing...taking care of yourself. I am not used to doing that...I was taught to put everyone before yourself, but if you do that, there is NEVER enough time for yourself!
Listen to your inner voice, love yourself enough, and find a peaceful balance between your inner self and your world...THAT, I truly believe is the key to success. I am getting more in tune with who I am, what I need to do to create more balance, and loving myself enough to make it happen. This is "MY NOW"! :)
Pulling out ALL THE STOPS...
I am FULLY engaged with BODY, MIND, &SPIRIT!