Just when you think you got it figured out
Monday, March 12, 2007
Well, I have it figured out-you know, the purpse of life, the purpose of suffering, the purpose of me becoming a journey practitioner. And then, the inner sabatours speak up about how dump I am. Who am I to have these spiritual thoughts. What do I think that I could become a practitoner and help others through profound pain and grief. Those little sabatours that i would love to kick in the butt and tell them to get the heck out. But i guess there there for a reason and have to figure it all out. But when I am in my knowning space. And I love my knowing space. I ahve no doubt that the right path is to be a journeypractitioner as it has helped me exponentially, and it goes along with my background in counseling and takes it up 3000 notches. This was what I was born for. Helping people who want help to profoundly change their life when they are ready. I don't mean change their life a little. I mean a profound change. Unfortunately, many people only claim to want that and then fear gets in their way. So, I need to learn how to help them. And perhaps the answer is to not help them profoundly at first, at first, just give them a few tools that will help and then if they want the more in depth more profound tools, I can offer them at that time.
This process costs $12,000 for me +plus the rental space to see local clients. I thnk that is my biggest fear point. What if I do this and no one sees the value in it. If there is value, in no uncertain terms, and that it is healthy value, should it eventually catch on???? It has caught on like wildfire on 3 other continents!!!! Gosh, just writing this brings me more clarity. It is something I am called to do. This is more than myself. This is my purpose. And I have been asking for my purpose but never knew it would show up in this form. And yet, I am totally comfortable with it being in this form.
so, I need to continue to meditate, stay in the now, do journey work on myself, and exercise!!!!!!!! I am having a transformation of mind, body,soul. and I need to trust that the right people will be there at the right time to meet whatever need or desire I have.
Thank you for reading this if you do. Also, let me know if you have been here. If poeple aren't reading it, then i am going to start journally privately. but i am experimenting this way to see if my struggles and insights can be beneficial to others.