Friday, December 30, 2011
As I read around various blogs from different team streams, I'm coming to realize that.. while I feel as if I'm the only one in the world who had a crappy year, lb-wise, it's just not true. I've been fortunate that as a total year, I've released lbs instead of gaining them. Just because in my estimation it wasn't enough doesn't mean I wasn't successful. I would just prefer a higher level of success, and am formulating a plan to be more-so in the coming year.
I'd like to let go of between 2 and 2 1/2 lbs each month. That doesn't sound like a lot, but if I let go 2 1/2 lbs a month, in a year that will be 30 lbs. That is huge! I released my first 50 lbs relatively easily and quickly when I first started. The next 10-15 lbs have been a far harder struggle, and I just haven't been determined enough to grit my teeth and make it happen. I'll consider 2011 my year of learning, struggling, and figuring things out. 2012 can then shine brightly as the year I implement, more consistently, what I've learned, and make my health and fitness a priority because.. I want to.
I'd like to continue my running. I'd like to improve my form, and my pace, and my endurance. I'd like to not look like I'm dying at the end of any run, from a neighborhood jaunt to a Half. I'd like to improve my timing and my pace. I'd like this to be the year that I actually run a full mile without stopping/walking, because I've not done that yet.
I'd like to improve my nutrition. The Reboot was great, and I'm trying to vaguely incorporate some of those concepts and dishes into my regular nutrition. That's wonderful, but only if I actually establish a plan and STICK to it! Best intentions, etc. and so on...
I'm at a crossroads in my life, and instead of putting it off, it's time to make a decision and follow through with it. Being stalled leads to misery, and I'm done with misery. I'm taking control, as scary.. scary? That sounds so small. As terrifying as making the decision and changing the entire course of my life may be, it must be done.
All of these things sound manageable. All of these things are doable, in small steady increments. Rather than stressing over 'OMG I NEED TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT' I can take 30 days at a time and determine that I'm going to make the best of them for myself.
So now? Now I'm going to go pull on my running gear, and head outside. It's been too long since I've pounded the pavement, and it's time to get back to it. This uncomfortable intermission is over.