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LTC - Week 6 ~ Hitting the Wall

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

what is it that pushes you over the hump when working out.

Some people call it hitting the wall…you’re working out, your pushing yourself to what you think is your limit, but you want to go just a little further in your workout. What is it that pushes you to go further?


Well, to be honest, I have not been REGULARLY exercising for quite some time. I get a few minutes in here and there when doing something that pushes me beyond what I normally do, but that has been it, at least for awhile.

HOWEVER, I started a new job this week that not only pushes me above my normal level of activity, but that pushes me BEYOND my comfort zone, into the realm of pain even, sore muscles from head to toe and I even felt like crying at one point and may again before my body adjusts to what I am doing now. I have even felt weak and sick to my stomach a time or two thinking I may even throw up. THAT may have more to do with how I'm eating than what I'm doing, but it could be tied together too.

Well, here's the thing, I need a job, I cannot quit, it is not an option (not without a better job to go too) and there have been several times I've wanted to quit and thought I could not hold on any longer, I "hit the wall" so to speak. So, what did I do to make myself keep going? How did I endure?

I would say the incentive of getting money for what I am doing pushes me, but that rarely enters my mind when I am hurting. When I was growing up, I was often made fun of for being a "sissy" or a "candya**" as my dad would say. So, I developed a stubbornness to prove them wrong, so part of my motivation or what pushes me to keep going is to prove any naysayers wrong, even if the naysayers only exist in my mind at this point. Another is that I know the mental satisfaction that comes from finishing what you start, and I guess it is pride that keeps me going.

Another technique is to keep telling myself one step after another, just keep going. Changing the activity if possible helps. When I got to the point I thought I was gonna cry, I just told myself to suck it up, it would be break or lunchtime soon and I thought about my recliner that I would come home and set in during my hour off for lunch and how good that would feel, what a reward for working hard.

I also remind myself that it's going to get easier, that my body AND mind will adjust, that I will lose weight and be more fit and will be happier for it. I tell myself that if I were on the Biggest Loser it would be this hard or harder and that I need to think of it as a challenge on the Biggest Loser. Then I have to remind myself not to compare myself to the faster, stronger, whatever people around me and just keep going until break, lunch or quitting time and doing MY best. I guess basically, it boils down to putting one foot in front of the other and praying for strength. Oh and taking a moment to bend or move in a direction that alleviates some of the pain in my hip when it's excruciating.

I realize alot of it is mental as opposed to physical. When my body is screaming in pain, my mind can push me just a bit farther and then a bit farther.

I cannot say I am ENJOYING my job at this moment, but I think that is because it is so physically challenging for me. I try to find comfort in getting to know those around me , distracting my mind from the pain by having conversations with them when possible and looking forward to the store actually opening and things at least being DIFFERENT. It might still be really fast-paced and I might still have some heavy lifting to do at times, but I will also have customers to think of, smile at and talk too and the nature of the job WILL change somewhat. Besides that...

Anyway, I need to get off here and do some other stuff before work ~ SOOOoo thankful I had yesterday off to recuperate a little bit, MIND and body!

Those of you that watch... enjoy BL tonight, I will watch tomorrow before work on hulu! :)

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    I loved your blog and have more to comment but I have to run...sister is here...yikes. "YES WE CAN"
    3389 days ago
    Shannon, I am so proud of you for looking at your challenges as positive and as not as much work if you were doing a work out! Enjoy your hard work, the rewards are already showing up in your attitude AND scale!!
    3397 days ago
    I would echo what Ruth said, and I am SO proud of you for tackling this, Shannon. You SO can do this, girl!!!
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    3398 days ago
    emoticon great job on pushing yourself Shan, no sissy or candy a** here
    3398 days ago
    Shan, one of the things that stuck out about your blog was when you said the job pushes you above your normal level of activity & beyond your comfort zone. You also said that you have not been exercising regularly. Sooo the job will be a great way for you to get in the extra fitness you have been missing. It may not be the most ideal way to get exercise but you are moving around, lifting boxes, getting merchandise and probably breaking a sweat at some point. Use this job to your advantage. You will definitely adjust and once you do, start pushing yourself all over again. In the meantime, take a nice long bath & soak :-)
    3399 days ago
    What is your job? I may soon be starting work soon and need this kind of thinking to get me through too
    3399 days ago
    You are one strong woman Shannon! I love the motivation that you view this as a Biggest Loser challenge - that it truly is.
    Way to go!
    3399 days ago
    I'm very like you in that I have to prove people wrong when they say I can't do something. What a tremendous push that gives when you are up agains that wall. You go girl!!!
    3399 days ago
    Shan, it's a privilege to have this peek into what's going on in your body & mind during these challenging workdays. I'm impressed at all the resources you draw on to make it through the difficult, painful tasks. Your self-talk is great! I'm proud of you for disproving those voices from the past. (And I am appalled that your dad would say such a thing about you. I imagine he was completely ignorant of how harmful it is to make such pronouncements about children.)

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    3399 days ago
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