So, yesterday was a tough day
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
My husband and I had a counseling session. He went into it hoping for reconciliation. I went into it hoping we could start the path of being friends though we're separated and on the move to divorce.
Please pray for him to lean on his family and his faith for support. He doesn't have many friends, so I pray he creates a strong circle of friends he can rely on to help him through his grief. The counselor recommended that he see a therapist on his own to work through his grief.
We've been together 17 years and I'm only 38! We were babies when we married. We've had beautiful times, but the relationship was becoming toxic to my mental health. So I did what I had to do. I still love him. Probably always will be. But I do not feel he's been a husband to me for a very long time. I craved his love, affection, support, forgiveness and approval, but he withheld it from me to punish me for sins long past. He doesn't get that I've experience deep healing in my soul. I get it. God gets it. My family gets it. And that's all that matters.
I love you guys and thank you for being here through this time of change.
My apartment is gorgeous. It's a clutter free space which brings me so much joy every moment I am here.
My parents are visiting this weekend to bring additional furniture and buy me a few things. They have hearts so big, you couldn't imagine.