Thursday, February 23, 2012
I am waiting to go back to the cardiologist for the results of my 7 day cardiac monitoring study. I currently am restricted from strenuous activities and exercise until we get the results. Not like I feel like doing any strenuous activities or exercise right now anyhow.
My health hasn't really bounced back from my hospital stay in December. I feel like I am in a downward spiral with my health and my emotions. The feeling horrible is hard enough but the not knowing is even harder. I need some answers and at this point I don't know that I even care what those answers are going to be. I need to just know already.
I haven't tracked my nutrition in MONTHS. I am so far off track at this point that it feels like such a hurdle to even attempt getting back at it. I haven't even been mindful of my eating which has resulted in a 15 pound gain in the last 2 months. When will I say that enough is enough?
I feel like I have so much else going on physically and emotionally that I can't really commit to this weight loss thing right now. I know I need to though, as losing weight will potentially help with my overall health and emotional well being. So, why can't I find the energy to even think about the calories I am consuming and track them??
For now here is the plan:
Step 1 - Ensure 8 glasses of water daily
Step 2 - Be mindful about what I am eating even if not tracking per say right now
Step 3 - Get results from cardiologist
Step 4 - Reassess and move forward