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Feeling Fat

Friday, March 02, 2012

For me this year, February was a month of not tracking food, not exercising regularly, and just giving in to cravings. Of course it shows on the scale - and on my body and in the way that my clothes fit.

What happened? I don't know and I'm not sure I'll ever know. February was my husband's birthday - I have been a widow for 5 and a half years, so why was it so hard this year? Valentine's Day with no card or flowers or chocolate from my special guy. ... this wasn't the first year, but it still seemed harder than usual this year to be alone.

Well, that just sounds like a bit of self-pity and quite a bit of justification for eating whatever I felt like and not exercising and being a slug in front of the television set. A bout of dizziness was kind of scary and made me aware of the downside of living alone. But I have children who call and come over and check on me and offer to drive me to doctor appointments. I have good friends who do likewise.

So - I'm counting my blessings this morning and feeling better and more positive than I have for the past 29 days or so. Marching into March with a positive attitude!
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    I totally relate although my binge has continued into March. But as of Sunday, I am officially done and back to counting calories, working out, and taking this weight back off!!! We can do this!
    3342 days ago
    Mo, Emotional eating is such a big part of my life that I can relate somewhat with the past month - not presuming to know how difficult it was to loose your beloved husband. We are here for you and love you as you are. March will be better!
    3359 days ago
    I'm sorry that you've had such a rough month. Sometimes we just can't break free very easily. Posting and blogging can make a difference to help other people know to reach out to you. I'm glad you've started March with a more positive attitude. Let us know how you're doing.
    3360 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2332407
    Getting back your positive attitude is a step in the right direction. My birthday was Feb. 1 and I know what you have be going through. Together, with our Spark Friends, we can do it. (((Hugs)))
    3360 days ago
    Love ya Mo! You've taken the first step to being a healthier you. You have what it takes and will do it. I believe in you! kat
    3360 days ago
    I am so sorry about the loss of your husband. My mother's death anniversary just passed and I was sad for a week. I can tell you from lots of experience - there are plenty of widowers at the gym looking for companionship. Shop around for a membership in the morning - you'll see the older folks there at that time. If you don't find a guy, you'll still make lots of friends. It's been a life saver for my social life now that I'm retired.

    Stay in touch on SP - You have plenty of friends right here!

    3360 days ago
  • MOGAL1946
    Good for you in dusting yourself off and getting that Spark feeling again. We are all here to cheer you on! emoticon
    3360 days ago
    I'm with you.....been a slug for WAY TO LONG....and I don't have the excuse/reason of losing a loved one. So....let's both march into March with new resolutions! emoticon
    3360 days ago
    You break your long term plan with one moment's lapse, but you also break your long term lapse with one day On Plan. Spring is almost upon us, a great time to get back to the work of feeling like a million dollars!!
    3360 days ago
  • no profile photo KRABBY52
    Good for you! You have a positive attitude and are not beating yourself up over your lapse. I, too, live alone and know how easy it is to be lazy. Keep the faith and stick with it!
    3360 days ago
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