Everything is falling into place perfectly
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
I sat down this weekend and wrote out about 8 pages typed, single space about how everything has all come together for me perfectly for this minute. I only went back to the year 1990 but could have gone farther. And, things are happening at a faster rate now that I am in this "flow" state. two days ago, someone called me out of the blue and asked meif i wanted to do a part time contract social work job over the next 2-4 weeks. I jumped at the idea for several reasons. One being money. As I have just made a committment to spend a boatload of money getting my practitioners liscence from the Journey. Money isn't the only reason I am excited about it. There are a bunch of reasons I am glad. But the absolute biggest reason is that it just confirms that I am on the right path and while I may not be able to see far in front of me, i can trust what is coming up on the road is just what I need. It is like the analogy I heard from somewhere: When you drive at night, you turn your headlights on and drive, only being able to see 100 feet in front of you. And yet, you can drive all night long, across america knowing that you will be able to see the place that you need to see when you get there. You don't constantly fret about what is in front of the headlights just out of sight. You just drive with the knowing that it will be revealed to yo before you need it revealed. The same is true for life. But why can't we just "be" and stay in the "now" and trust that we will make it along our path? It seems to take a lot of effort to do this. I bet it was natural when we were born and then stuff happened. I am working on achieving this state of mind. And so far, I am being very successful at it and enjoying all the wonderful suprises that I would not have created if I were busy worrying about what was next and how I would have enough money or time, and on and on. And I am still so shocked and amazed that I can say that I am truely enjoying this journey. For being so depressed to the point of being on disability, and being suicidal since I was 6, I still feel like I have to pinch myself to see if it is all a dream. I keep wondering if I will wake up and have the depression overwhelm me again. I have never felt the way I have felt over the last few weeks, and while I am waiting for the bomb to drop, I don't think it will. And the shift was so simple. How is that possible? I don't know. But I was committed to it, I put the request out there to the universe, and followed where I was led. and I was led to the perfect place for me and it forever changed me.
And I am committed to continue to follow my healing journey, wherever it takes me. I am taking action and the things on my vision board are ALL happening. And it is getting faster and faster and faster. I can't wait to find out what happens over the next month.