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Kinda.. sorta..

Monday, March 12, 2012

So I'm kinda sorta back. I don't feel like I'll be going great gangbusters exactly, but easing back into Spark-life such as it is.

It's only been two weeks but it's felt longer and shorter, both. I've only started tracking nutrition again on Friday. Prior to that I didn't track, and didn't much care.

I've been recovering from oral surgery the last 11 days. Since then I've been on soft foods while my dental implants heal. That's been very frustrating for me as the oral surgeon said it would be 'a few days' of recovery and it was more than that. Much.

14 days of inactivity are also behind me. I'm hoping to make it to the gym today after work. I missed an 8 mi long run this weekend with the Tribe but I just wasn't up to it. I'm hoping to .. not make up necessarily.. but to work my way back up to where I was prior to the break.

JASR is in 18 days, and I'm very much looking forward to that. Not only because I'll get to see some Spark friends again, but mostly because my sister and niece (remember Ms. Poppy?) are going as well, and this will be our first time running together. I'm super excited about that, and the fact that after the JASR weekend I'll be heading "home" to W.Va. to see my daughter, her boyfriend, and my mom for a few days. It'll be my first time back east since I moved here to Portland 6 years ago.

So while February was a kick-*ss fitness month, March has not been much of anything at all except recovery. Hopefully I can salvage the rest of the month, both physically and mentally/emotionally. The break was due to simply defeating myself in terms of numbers. The scale was up, the eating was wrong, and the attitude was poor. It's behind me enough now that my head and my heart are focused on the same goal and I can find .. earn .. success again.
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  • KAREN42BOYS
    Ouch, teethies, ouch!

    Well, let's just kick butt together.
    3387 days ago
  • LMLOPEZ
    Aww, Candy-I sympathize with you, i HATE mouth stuff!!! I don't even lose weight despite tooth issues :(
    Hope your recovery speeds up. Welcome back even if it's kinda sorta. Do what you can, and let yourself feel what you need to feel to get to where you need to be. We're here waiting for ya...
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    3388 days ago
  • IMIN2GENES
    Glad you're back! Sorry to hear about your lengthy recovery. No fun! I miss you when you're not around but totally understand. You've got to take care of you!
    Chris
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    3388 days ago
  • AFMARVIN
    Glad you are feeling better, had to have some oral surgery myself a couple years ago and it was the worst! Take care of yourself and you'll get back on track soon. emoticon emoticon
    3388 days ago
  • LYNNANN43
    Heal quickly, Candy!

    I can't wait to meet you at JASR!!!!! emoticon
    3390 days ago
  • GAYLEP67
    It's not success AGAIN, Candy. It's a continuation... While it may not feel like it, you're constantly evolving even if it's a little two steps forward one step back sometimes. Glad to see you back and hope you're feeling better soon. Prolonged recovery can be draining but I'm sure a good dose of Ms Poppy will help to bring you along!

    Missed you a lot!
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    3390 days ago
  • ANIMAL_L0VER
    Glad to hear you're back (even if sporadically) and hope you're feeling better asap! Let us know if we can do anything to help you ease back into spark... we're here for you!
    3390 days ago
  • BOBBYD31
    hope your feeling better, what a great reason to come back- a race and family
    3390 days ago
  • ANNESYLVIA
    I hope the recovery speeds up a bit for your sake. Definitely ease slowly back into exercising.

    Good luck on your family adventure run!

    hugs, Anne
    3390 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8532529
    So missed you and am glad you are back. I totally understand though, I've been much in the same place! I'm just hoping as the weather gets warmer...my motivation goes up! So hope your healing continues and that your time with your sis, Miss Poppy, and going home all goes well. Hugs...Robin
    3390 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8072637
    You are definitely missed when you're not around, but everyone needs a break now and then. So sorry to hear the surgery recovery has taken much longer than expected. That is never fun.

    I hope you have an absolutely wonderful time on your trip to W.Va.! 6 years is a long time to be away.

    Keep on keeping on, girl. You'll get back on track and kick a$$ again. This is just another curve in the journey. As always, I believe in you.

    Lots of love and hugs to you! emoticon
    Christine
    3390 days ago
  • WALKAWAY
    So glad to have you back. Hope you get to feeling emoticon soon. emoticon
    3390 days ago
  • ANNIEAPP1
    Glad you're back! Thanks for adding me as a Sparks Friend, too. AND thanks for the congrats. It is much appreciated.

    Be kind to yourself, and take it easy. Your convalenscence was unavoidable. Pretty soon you'll be back to speed.

    Have a great day and enjoy the sunshine (hope there is some where you live - over here it's 79 degrees!!!! - hard to believe for March, but I'll take it! tomorrow they're predicting 80+).

    Annie

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    3390 days ago
  • GETFIT2LIVE
    I have missed you! It sounds like it hasn't exactly been a fun time for you, but I am glad that is behind you now. Easing back into things is smart; JASR should be a lot of fun! Take good care of yourself, okay?
    3390 days ago
  • FEISTYOWL
    Oh I'm sorry to hear about the recovery that has taken much longer than expected. I think dental work can affect so much more than we expect it to. I hope it continues to improve, maybe a little quicker now.

    Have fun on the run in 18 days - that sounds like a blast!
    3390 days ago
  • DARK_CINDERELLA
    Don't forget the best part about JASR.....you get to meet MEEEE!

    Ok, enough about me, let's talk about you. So glad JASR is so close; I'd love to give you a great big hug right now. I know what it's like to hit the not caring point, and it's not fun. You don't care, but you wish you did. You hit the nail on the head when you identified it as self-defeating. But the part that makes you amazing? The fact that you only took 2 weeks to figure it out. Even if you're not "gangbusters," you are pretty incredible. I also don't think it's any surprise that this comes on the heels of a kick-butt month........

    One more thing: ARE you healing from the surgery? What kind of oral surgery? And have you followed-up with anyone? Sorry.....just my nurse-self coming out.
    3390 days ago
  • CJANNESS
    Welcome back! Hope you are feeling better soon!
    3390 days ago
  • PIXIEMOM13
    Glad to have you back!!

    I may have to add JASR to my list for next year..heheh.. i'd love to meet you and a bunch of other sparkfriends!

    Hope you are feeling better.
    3390 days ago
  • MUSTANG_SALLY2
    I'm hoping that your feeling more like yourself every day. That dental thing can be tough. Why does it have to hurt so much?! Ugh.

    I'm excited about your trip home. I hope you have a safe journey. I cannot wait to hear all about your trip!

    I'm cheering for you!

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    3390 days ago
  • PARASELENIC
    ZOMG I missed you!

    Take your time to heal, these things happen in life, where you can't track and exercise. But you are back on track, on your own terms, in your own way. I'm excited your back, but I totally understand the need to ease back into it. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help you get back into it.

    (And also, if you get back and want to join up again, please know that postal would love to have you back whenever you so desire!)
    3390 days ago
  • ROXIT22222
    Welcome back! I still blame it all on the ground hog! Where is our spring? Ease back into it slowly. (maybe take a look at my blog 'back to basics' if you haven't seen it yet). You are not alone on this struggle and soon that sun will be shinning. :)
    3390 days ago
  • MRS_EVA_K
    bless you. I hope you get to feeling better. The thing is sometimes we need downtime and it sounds like you just needed some. I'm glad to see you sorta back and I hope you enjoy your JASR weekend.
    3390 days ago
  • LISA01605
    It's great to see you back! I have been struggling a bit myself lately. Going between super motivated and not caring. Sounds like you have a lot to look forward to in the coming weeks and at least the surgery is behind you!
    3390 days ago
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