I've gained back 4 pounds in 10 : (

Monday, March 19, 2012

I'm ashamed to admit that I have been binge eating sweets almost nonstop every night since I started work. In 10 days, I've gained back 4 pounds (and I was surprised that it was only 4 pounds with the way I've been eating).

I'm having a really hard time adjusting to my new schedule...I'm exhausted when I get home and I have had trouble sleeping all the way through the night. Although everyone at work has been super nice and very patient, I feel very anxious and nervous at work. I feel like I have to prove myself as smart and nice every second I'm there. It is EXHAUSTING making small "get to know you" conversation with my coworkers and answering their 21 personal questions about where I'm from, my family situation, where I live, what I do after work, etc. I know they're just trying to be friendly, but since I haven't worked in almost 3 years, I haven't been around people on a regular basis. I feel bombarded and cornered, and honestly, I feel pressure to fit in like I'm some high school kid again. It's very weird to 'hope people like me' at my age.

Anyway, my eating has been completely out of control and it has been super hard to get back on track. I'm praying every day for strength and determination.
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    Take it all in you can.
    It is quite BRAVE of you to blog and share your experience. I feel there is a level of pressure to always do well here on spark...and with everyone else bragging about how good they're doing it hard to come and discuss any setbacks. So YAY! for you...cause your certainly not the only person. This kinda stuff comes with a lifelong decisions...UPS & DOWNS.
    I did something like that...went on a special menu, lost over 6 lbs. and turned around and gained most of it back.
    THE GOOD didn't take me but a few days to get it back off and WITHOUT going "extreme".
    You have been doing well ALL ALONG. THAT really helps.
    It won't take long for the anxieties to subside.
    I am THE SAME WAY...I always try to be ultra nice and get along in new situations. IT IS WISE. Getting along is half "the game". I am not good with personal questions because I am a private person. It seems the more you answer THE MORE PEOPLE ASK. Sometimes they catch you off guard with odd stuff that would seem NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS...but people nowadays have "different" etiquette.
    I KNOW how you feel. My boss is retiring and it will FEEL LIKE I am a new employee ALL OVER AGAIN...after nearly 8 years on the job.
    KEEP SPARKING! matter what.
    3380 days ago
    I agree with FITNESSMONSTER. Just take things one day at a time. Hang in there!

    3383 days ago
    Just take it one day at a time. You will soon get used to your new routine. emoticon
    3383 days ago
    Be strong in the Lord and in the power of His Might!
    3383 days ago
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    Sure, the feelings ARE the same as junior high. And from what you said--junior high and high school SUCKED. The feelings are the same, but the situation is not the same. Keep working at separating the two. Then do what Kayecan said.
    3383 days ago
    Good luck!

    Maybe take 10 minutes before work and after to relax and meditate?

    3383 days ago
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    I was replying with all sorts of advice but then decided "who am I to give Naima advice", so I deleted it all. You know the know the know all the know you have to all you have to do, is look to yourself for the answers to what is going to make this job and your healthy lifestyle coexist. I am confident you will figure it out. In the meantime, be nice to yourself and don't be saying you're ashamed of anything. You are a neat person and the people at work will see that without you having to prove anything to them. Baby steps will get you back to being focused.
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    3383 days ago
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    What's most important is to allow this and not beat up on yourself! emoticon

    You just started a new job -- what a major life stressor. We usually do well with one change at a time. You started eating the nutrient dense way and you know you CAN do it. It takes a lot of planning and doesn't allow for any comfort foods. So as we are learning how not to depend on food to help deal with stress, cut yourself some slack. You know what is ideal and what is realistic under the circumstances. Now that you have swung to the other extreme, you will find a happy medium you can live with as you pace your change to a more plant-based daily diet.


    Whatever you have already done will have to do.

    Now smile at yourself, and prepare for the next day (pack a lunch or at least a healthy snack).

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    3383 days ago
    Just remember to start small. Pick one thing to work on. Go back to the basics. Are you doing something different when you get home. To keep your mind off eating? Can you take a walk or something.

    My own take on my own work situation is that I didn't like junior high the first time around.....that is what my work is like.

    Remember we are here for you.....
    3383 days ago
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    Hang in there! Things will settle down and you will get it under control. Take one small step at a time. Pick something you can control and go for it. You can do it!
    3383 days ago
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