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Here's your sign..

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Slowly but surely, I'm finding my way along again.

Saturday and Sunday we spent in the yard and garden. It was glorious here with the sun shining and warmer weather. The puppies had free reign to run in and out of the house at will - all summer long the door is open for them to rampage around the backyard whenever they wish, then come charging into the house like a panting pack of ragamuffins, sloppily lap down some water, then go zooming off again. It makes my heart smile to watch them bound around the yard with such joy chasing bugs, each other, or anything they think they might have heard.

I managed some nice calorie burns and step counts those two days, blowing my 'calories to be burned for the week' out of the water with one mega-burn day on Sunday. It felt good to get out and soak up the Vitamin D while moving and stretching and sinking my fingers and concentration into the dirt.

What I didn't manage was a run with the Tribe on Saturday. They did a 10 mi run that I just was not up for or ready for. I let it go, and contented myself with happily gardening with Bill and the puppies. Last year, I missed so much of this - working the yard, taking care of plants and living things - I think this year will be a time to bring things all back into balance again, making time for everything, somehow.

Bill's recovery is still going well. It sounds so cliche but I believe this turn of events alerted us not only to his health issues, but brought home a few salient points about our relationship as well. I'm hesitant to say it directly (because when I say something positive, something negative almost always follows in direction opposition to the positive) but it feels like we both have a better appreciation for each other, and what we have. We have been so very far apart for quite a long time, it's a little hard to trust 'us' right now. But I am, I'm making every effort to, and it's making a world of difference.

Onward then.

I ran for the first time in .. hang on... yep, the first time in 2 1/2 weeks. March 24. Whew. It was not an easy 2.5 miles. Not at all. But it was enlightening. Why? Because I got my sign.


Bumps. Seems pretty simple. It's a yellow sign, indicating it's a warming. It's warning you that there are bumps ahead. It's telling you to slow down.

It doesn't say STOP!
It doesn't say TURN BACK!
It doesn't say GIVE UP ALL HOPE!

It say be careful, there are bumps ahead, as there are in everyone's lives, and you need to slow down a bit, but you can keep moving. Just use caution until you're clear of the bumps, and then you can proceed as normal again.

I'm trying.
Well, no. I'm not trying.

I'm doing.

I'm walking at lunch. I'm eating better. I'm sleeping better. I've been to the gym, and will go again this evening. I've run. I'll do it again Thursday. I've asked my Tribe leader for advice on how to handle my training, or lack thereof, for the R'n'R. I am doing, and while I find myself achy, sore, tired, and still a little raw, I am making progress.

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    How often does it seem to come right back to that balance thing? Geez! LOL! I think that part of our lives is bound to be a work in progress forever.

    Sounds like a great weekend and just what you needed. Love the sign and the message. Glad you're finding a good groove for you again. Also very glad to hear that Bill is doing well and that you've found a new appreciation for each other.
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    3357 days ago
    Oh Candy, I'm so glad you are starting to see light at the end of the tunnel. I'm with you on the yard work, there's something nurturing about being out in the fresh air, smelling the dirt and seeing plants and trees come alive after the winter. Looks like you're going to have great weather for Bridge to Brew tomorrow. I'm sorry I won't be joining you but just might make it downtown to do the waterfront loop. Have a good time and don't stress on your pace. Just enjoy!
    3357 days ago
    Great blog, Candy. I'm with you on the bumps. Not easy, but we can navigate them!
    3359 days ago
  • ROXIT22222
    It is a balancing act isn't it? That has been part of my struggle the past few weeks too. I did great in Hawaii 'doing it all'... and then I come home injure my leg and I can't motivate to do anything. OK the weekends with donut man but the week days are hard and bad. (enough about me)

    I love the bump in the road sign that's great! We will connect before the RnR half. I may be walking most of it too.
    3359 days ago
    This is a beautiful blog, C, and just what I needed right now. I've been down for the past several days; not even my birthday happenings to look forward to tomorrow and Sat have been cheering me up. It's very good to remember that we just need to find balance in our lives and take it slow when things are rough. Thank you so much for being so open and sharing.
    3360 days ago
    Oh how I needed this! So many bumps in my road. I must admit that I turned and walked quickly away from them. Ok, no more. Time to face them and head forward again. Starting NOW.

    I'm glad Bill is doing better and that you are finding a renewed appreciation for each other. I'm sending you both a big ole' hug.

    Keep us posted on how things are going. I'm excited for you about your R'n'R training. (I'm guessing that's not for Rest n' Relaxation. LOL)

    3360 days ago
  • BOBBYD31
    love it ! that is a great sign and glad bill is doing well!
    3360 days ago
    What a wonderful blog! Thank you for sharing. It's awesome that you and Bill have come out of his health scare with something so wonderful!

    I really love that you are finding balance to do things that you love along with your fitness/running goals! Balance is such a big challenge for me so I really appreciate your finding some!

    So I saw and loved your sign picture as I was reading your blog but your words about the bumps made it AWESOME!

    Keep on doing it!

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    3360 days ago
    So glad to see this! And glad you are moving forward (not speaking too loudly so the bad luck doesn't hear.) :)
    3360 days ago
    Fabulous blog!

    And great news, too (I'm whispering that so nothing negative can hear).
    3360 days ago
    I'm glad to hear that Bill is recovering and that things are starting to get back on track. I loved the sign! You are so right about bumps in the road. We can go across them. We can succeed. We don't need to quit or back up. Thanks for the optimism and motivation!
    3360 days ago
  • LISA01605
    This was such an inspirational blog. I have been having a very rough time lately. Work is busy and I just haven't cared much about food or exercise. I will get into it for a day or a week and then back slide. I love the part about bumps!! Never give up just proceed more cautiously :)
    3360 days ago
    You sound very in touch with where you are at - congrats on that! That can be hard to do.

    I *love* your sign and how you interpreted it!! Really, that message is so great (I needed to hear it too), so thanks for sharing that.

    Heres to going slowly over the bumps in this journey!!
    3360 days ago
  • TIGGER622
    LOVE LOVE LOVE this blog!!! You are one tough cookie and a total inspiration!!!! Keep up the good work!!!
    3360 days ago
  • CH0718
    I love that you are making time for the two of you to be together and striving for better balance. I think most of us need to do that. It sounds like it's been a rough go of things lately, but you appear to be coming out on the other side with your head in a good place. Hang on, it's going to be a bumpy ride, but it sure is a ride worth doing. (HUGS)
    3360 days ago
    So glad to read this, Candy! Yes, there are bumps--sometimes lots of them, and sometimes some pretty big ones that catch us by surprise. You're on the right course, though, and you will get through this period. Looking forward to meeting you at the R'n'R!
    3360 days ago
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