I thought about it a lot and for a long time, but finally made a decision. I reapplied for my old placement as a First Grade teacher in the Puerto Rico Education Department. I applied on time and did all they asked for in the application. I filed all the medical papers they asked, including several transcripts from College, one for may BA as an Earlychildhood Education, one for my MA as a Reading Specialist, and one for my second MA in Education Administration and Supervision. I, also, got and email receipt telling me that they got my application and assignend a number for it.
Today, after 2 months of silence, I look up in the teachers Registration List, to find out the Education Depártment left me out of the Rooster list. That means I will not be called to a teachers placement and I will neeed to wait until February 2013 and re-apply again.
I called my brother that is the one that can help me find out what was going on and he found out everything has to do with the fact that, in last election day, November 2008, I worked as a Vote Center facilitator for a different political party than the one that won the elections. Can you beleive it, my Spark Community?
I feel terribly frustrated and down. I am a well prepared teacher that loves the teaching of reading and the goverment decided to punish me this way. This is not fair, it is like I am not worth enough for them cause I have a diferent idea. I feel so mad that I feel like crying all night long. I feel rejected, and rejection kills me. Why does goverments do things like this? Why is this so unfair? Why can they decide about your future? I mean I love my home and I enjoy been a housewife, but I feel I am young enough to keep giving from myself to students. I feel staying at home is a waste of my talents and my abilities. I guess I do feel I am not worth enough....
Oh my gosh I feel so sad and frustrated that I do not know how to handle all this frustration right now and the worst situation is the whoever said it, was correct, "Life is hard, but food is easy."
Thank you for taking the time to read my Blog. Thank you for allowing me to vent all this frustration with my beloved community. I really appreciate your time and support. I will be looking forward to you wise words, and please forgiveme for this messy Blog. Remember that I love you all and that I love SparkPeople. Good Night and have a great