Why is it that a Lenten promise turns into a post Lenten Gorge-fest? I gave up meat for Lent this year. My main source of protein was eggs, dairy, seafood and plants. Did great! Although, the last three weeks I was getting tired of it. I persevered tho, so I'm proud of that.
Easter dinner was a nice spiral sliced ham. A simple dinner which included green beans with new potatoes, Mac n cheese (for the kids) and freshly baked bread. We had angel food cake with strawberries for desert. Delish! Meat! I was in heaven! A super meal with my super family!
The problem is...I kept eating...all week! Every day this week, I've gotten up with my usual resolve which dissolved as soon as I got to work. People brought in their left over Easter goodies. Angel food cake, pineapple upside down cake, chocolate eggs...To top that off, we had regulators visit our office this week. Breakfast and lunch was brought in for them...and anything leftover was fair game for the rest of us. Pastry, muffins, cookies...yes, I have a thing for baked goodness!
I'm disgusted with myself...which I reward with more eating. Bleh!
I've given this some thought and have come to a couple of conclusions:
1. I'm not willing to throw in the towel just yet. I've lost 24lbs thus far and I'm not done yet! I have a few more goals I plan to reach and my current behavior will NOT contribute to that whatsoever! Thus, I'm shouting out to my SP friends for help! Say something encouraging...that's what's needed right now.
2. I feel sluggish. And it's a combination of re-introducing meat in my diet...and the sugar! I've decided that what I REALLY have been craving is chicken. And until I give it what it REALLY wants, the cravings won't stop. I really don't miss beef...beef was never my thing. So I think the thing for me to do is to continue with a modified vegan diet...plants, eggs, dairy, seafood and chicken. I won't rule out pork or beef now and again...but it won't be a staple for me.
3. Exercise...or lack thereof. I get up at 4:30 every day so I can get my workout in. And I've been faithful to that this week...to the rise and shine part, that is. I have been soooo tired and sluggish that I haven't even exercised! So, I'm eating out of control AND not burning calories! Yikes! Well, now that I've given this some thought I realize this stems from my gluttonous eating. I think I just have to jump back in the saddle and DO IT! And healthy eating will help re-vitalize me.
4. I didn't have a plan. Monday morning I was faced with all the Easter goodies that my co-workers brought in. My resolve quickly melted. And the more I caved, the more guilty I felt for indulging and the more I comforted myself with goodies. That is stopping TODAY! I am packing a healthy lunch and will eat only that! And I'll track my intake and hold myself accountable. I can't change the past...but I CAN move forward!
Sorry this is such a long blog. I guess it just takes a while to work through these things. I count on you, my SP peeps, to help reflame the spark in ME! I just CAN'T give up now!
Thanks for your support! I hope everyone is fanning their inner spark!