Thursday, April 26, 2012
This past week has been enlightening yet very scary for me.
I have been dealing with a lot of issues (mostly small) over the past few month which certainly haven't helped my weight situation (the biggest issue). Maybe dealing isn't the right word since I haven't managed to get them under control. So, a few weeks ago, when another gigantic stressor was piled on, I decided it was time to enlist the help of a professional.
After laying out everything that has been going on, we came to the conclusion that my weight is the only item that only I control and since it is my biggest complaint, it should be the first thing I tackle. It was recommended that I join either Overeaters Anonymous (OA) or Food Addicts in Recovery (FA).
So, off I went to try a few meetings of each to get a feel for the programs. I don't want to go back for my next appointment and not have followed the advice that I am paying for.
What a revelation! I definitely belong in one of these programs but never thought of myself as an addict of any kind before. My husband always says he doesn't play video games because he would easily get hooked. I never worried about these kinds of things because I never thought of myself as having the 'addict' gene. Looking at certain behaviors, other than my eating, I can see tendencies that do suggest it is more prevalent than I thought.
Then again, I never thought of myself as being depressed but guess I was wrong about that too! So, perhaps I don't suffer from chronic depression but it seems that my overeating is a sign of depression.
What to do with/about all of this new information? I am tackling it head on. I am deciding whether to go with OA or FA, although the decision is causing me some stress, and I will continue with counseling to help with the underlying issues. What other option do I have since being fat the rest of my life is unacceptable.