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Still grieving...

Sunday, April 29, 2012

One year ago tomorrow, my beloved yellow lab Katie will be gone. She left us last year and my heart still aches. It was the hardest thing I ever did, letting go of that dog when all I wanted was her here with me.

Katie was a surprise first wedding anniversary gift to me from my husband. She took the place of the child I longed for all those years we could not have a baby. She was my best furry friend and she loved me.

I did not know that I was pregnant with Madeline the day I brought Katie to the vet that last day. God is good...I needed something to hang onto when my heart was so broken. I had a hard time with Katie leaving me and I was very sick with high fevers and such. I went to the doctor. They wanted a chest x-ray. I said to give me a pregnancy test "just in case" and God was good...pregnant! emoticon

As the date draws near, I find my heart hurting so much again. I will burst into tears at just the thought of my beloved dog, one of my "two labs" that I love. I know there are many doggie people out there that will understand...and I want to say thanks emoticon in advance for your understanding.

I also know that my dog will meet me at Heaven's gates, as God would not make something so loving to just disappear once her time on earth was finished.

Katie...I love you still and miss you each and every day!

9/13/98 -----4/30/11

Meet me at the gate Katie...and I will expect "lovey bites" and "Katie kisses" when I get there! emoticon
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    Our pets are so full of unconditional love and such a part of our lives. emoticon
    3267 days ago
    It is so hard to lose a pet. They ARE family.
    We lost our dog 3 yrs ago, and I still have twinges occasionally. We love them and they love us. emoticon
    3267 days ago
    I do hope you will get another one. That is the only way we were able to deal with our collie's passing in 2005. The new baby was a shelter dog and not exactly what we had in mind, but he has been absolutely terrific. As empty nesters, he fills a void left now that the kids are generally not home, but they love him like crazy, too. Right now I am exhausted because I had to comfort him last night during a thunderstorm. But that's ok.

    3272 days ago
    Hugs to you, sweet friend! What a tender and sweet memory to know that God was giving you the gift of your daughter just as he was asking you to release your Katie to him. You are so right; God is good! Hoping you find comfort in Jehovah-Shalom, the Lord your Peace.
    3272 days ago
    HUGS! I understand that loss~ They are our children and we love them SO much! Many hugs to you...
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    3273 days ago
    I'm so sorry. Yes do get another one...I love all my furry babies and it helps to get another when one passes...Hugs. Barb
    3273 days ago
  • GIANNA345
    Will you get another one? I feel the same way about my animals, and I've found that I can bond quickly with a new animal, and that it helps. We had Minnie, a Brittany Spaniel, for 13 years. Then we fell in love with Babe, another Brittany Spaniel, and she is 9 now. Babe accompanied me to Pittsburgh about a month ago, where I participated in Just a Short Run with about 60-70 other Sparkpeople (it's a team that grew out of the Rookie Runners). She's a real sweetheart who loves attention and she made friends with everybody there.

    I hope you find some comfort!
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  • TEXANMOM81275
    Our furry friends are truly family - I had Bart for 10 years, Ginger for 12- and my heart broke with each of them. All I can offer is words of love... emoticon
    3274 days ago
    Awwww, I"m sorry. I know how hard it is to loose a pet. They are part of your family and its so sad when they leave us. Your beloved "fur-baby" will stay in your heart until you get to see her again :) I know what you mean about her helping you through all of the years you struggled to conceive. We got Asia last year when I was 20 weeks pregnant with Emma. Everyone thought I was crazy, but I needed someone to love and take care of and she helped fill my heart while I was grieving. We love her so much and I think she is extra special because she was our first "baby" as was your Katie.

    Thinking of you. Lots of love.
    3274 days ago
    I still get tearful now thinking of my brandy. My heart aches for you. The fact that you were pregnant when you had to put her down, says to me there is a god. Hugs! emoticon
    3274 days ago
    emoticon I still grieve for my almost 18 year old cat Daisy I lost to cancer 12 years ago. When someone takes a special place in our heart, the heart does not distinguish whether that loved one walked on two legs or four.
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  • RD03875
    Lots of hugs for you, been there, done that.
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