Staring Supreme Unfairness in the Face - I will win
Friday, May 04, 2012
I guess I shouldn't be surprised. I mean, I abused my body with food and inactivity for over 30 years. But, I'm doing all the right things now, so I thought I'd dodged some bullets.
So, 3 months ago I was surprised and irritated to have lost a bunch of weight and then have my always great blood pressure be all the sudden really high. But, most everyone in my family gets high blood pressure in their late 30's/early 40's, so I took the diagnosis, the unnecessary health/lifestyle lectures, and the medication with a grain of salt.
Fast forward to last week. I'm still doing all the right things, but since starting the blood pressure medication, I've been having a hard time maintaining my weight. So, I went to a new doctor, who asked alot of questions, seems really knowledgable, and took a vampire's supply of blood for testing.
The new doctor's nurse calls me yesterday while I'm driving home to ask me if I was sure I was fasting when I had my labs drawn. Uh oh. I have polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS) so my blood sugar is always a little elevated, but not by much. So, I was instantly prepared to explain. I told the nurse I was certain I was fasting, but have PCOS so always have elevated fasting sugar counts...usually in the 111 range. She said "Your level was 134."
I work in a health related field and know what that number means. That's a diabetic fasting blood sugar level.
No. No. No. No. No. No way can I lose almost 100 lbs and get high blood pressure AND diabetes. NO fricking way. This is so unfathomable to me. You're not supposed to lose weight and get fricking SICK! I was so ticked off at the injustice of it all, I cried the rest of the way home. I never cry. But this, this is just too much, and so unfair.
The nurse scheduled me a follow up appointment with the doctor on Tuesday afternoon to discuss the sugar level and my other lab work. I'm hoping he changes my blood pressure medicine, and I'm hoping its that blood pressure medicine that's causing the elevated sugar.
In the meantime, I've moved past devestated, and right on to mad. A good friend of mine's mother used to tell her "Who said life's fair, Rebecca Deann?!" and that is so true. So, throw it at me universe. Wanna give me high cholesterol next? Bring it. Because, no matter what, I'm not quitting. I will win this fight against genetics, stress, and my own freaking body. Just watch me.