Staring Supreme Unfairness in the Face - I will win

Friday, May 04, 2012

I guess I shouldn't be surprised. I mean, I abused my body with food and inactivity for over 30 years. But, I'm doing all the right things now, so I thought I'd dodged some bullets.

So, 3 months ago I was surprised and irritated to have lost a bunch of weight and then have my always great blood pressure be all the sudden really high. But, most everyone in my family gets high blood pressure in their late 30's/early 40's, so I took the diagnosis, the unnecessary health/lifestyle lectures, and the medication with a grain of salt.

Fast forward to last week. I'm still doing all the right things, but since starting the blood pressure medication, I've been having a hard time maintaining my weight. So, I went to a new doctor, who asked alot of questions, seems really knowledgable, and took a vampire's supply of blood for testing.

The new doctor's nurse calls me yesterday while I'm driving home to ask me if I was sure I was fasting when I had my labs drawn. Uh oh. I have polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS) so my blood sugar is always a little elevated, but not by much. So, I was instantly prepared to explain. I told the nurse I was certain I was fasting, but have PCOS so always have elevated fasting sugar counts...usually in the 111 range. She said "Your level was 134."

I work in a health related field and know what that number means. That's a diabetic fasting blood sugar level.

No. No. No. No. No. No way can I lose almost 100 lbs and get high blood pressure AND diabetes. NO fricking way. This is so unfathomable to me. You're not supposed to lose weight and get fricking SICK! I was so ticked off at the injustice of it all, I cried the rest of the way home. I never cry. But this, this is just too much, and so unfair.

The nurse scheduled me a follow up appointment with the doctor on Tuesday afternoon to discuss the sugar level and my other lab work. I'm hoping he changes my blood pressure medicine, and I'm hoping its that blood pressure medicine that's causing the elevated sugar.

In the meantime, I've moved past devestated, and right on to mad. A good friend of mine's mother used to tell her "Who said life's fair, Rebecca Deann?!" and that is so true. So, throw it at me universe. Wanna give me high cholesterol next? Bring it. Because, no matter what, I'm not quitting. I will win this fight against genetics, stress, and my own freaking body. Just watch me.
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    Wow, that really ISN'T fair. I'm sorry it keeps piling on you now, AFTER all your fabulous success! However, I *love* your feisty attitude about it. You go get 'em!
    3293 days ago
    I had PCOS and have been living with type 2 diabetes for 10 years. Unfortunately, one causes the other(as well as weight gain-blah) I've not been good about dieting but my glucose stays level if I eat on time, walk 30 minutes a day and take my meds. So far, my blood pressure is normal.

    None of these disorders negate the hard work you have done and if you keep exercising and eating right, it may decrease your need for medication.

    It's just another stumbling block-a bump in the road. Just keep doing the right things and hopefully, the rest of you will stay healthy.

    But it is horribly unfair-I agree.
    3293 days ago
  • TERRY631
    It really does seem unfair after all of the good work that you've done...losing what you have already lost! I'm so happy for you, though, that you will not just chuck it all and give up!!! My husband lost a much smaller amount of weight, and ended up with the same fasting glucose as you have now. He just started taking Metformin (for his now diagnosed type 2 diabetes) 2 months ago, and is due to have bloodwork repeated in a month. His grandfather also had type 2. He was very upset and frustrated, but is doing his best now to watch carbs, exercise and take his meds. My numbers have been hovering around 110...not good for me either, and I just found out that my father was diagnosed w/type 2 diabetes a year ago (I don't speak to him and found out through family members). Unfortunately, I know where this is headed for me, too. Exercising is one of the best things that you can do for yourself with type 2. So you keep that fighting attitude and go, girl! emoticon
    3293 days ago
    Ah geez! That sucks, and I'm sorry. But you're right.. you've done SO well already, there's no way this is going to stop you or derail you!
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    3293 days ago
  • BUTTERFLY-1976
    It's not fair. But it's good that you & your dr. are trying to figure out what's going on. Don't give up!! Hang in there, this is just a speed bump on the road.
    3293 days ago
    Hopefully they will recheck that!! emoticon Just doesn't seem right nor fair.
    3293 days ago
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    It's not fair. Just think how bad it would have been if you had not lost the weight first!
    3293 days ago
  • KNH771
    So sorry to hear about your health news. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
    3293 days ago
    First - I'm so sorry for the news and the stress. Second - I'm glad you're sitting down with the Dr to figure it out... could be the meds. Third... YOU WILL WIN!
    3294 days ago
    Keep motivated! You lost 100 pounds so far and that is great! DO NOT let a little set back ruin all of your hard work!!! emoticon
    3294 days ago
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