Hard times on the horizon.
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Hi, I'm an emotional eater. Nice to meet you. Emotional eating is something I've been dealing with my entire life. I'm positive it is what has put me in the place I am today. When I'm sad, I'd eat, Lonely, eat. Bored? Eat then too. Angry, stressed, happy, you name it. My life has revolved around food and the comfort it brings me. The reward. This is something I need to consciously think about in order to change. It's hard. In the past when I've made improvements on my health it has always been derailed by some major event happening, that turned my life upside down. Last time I lost almost 40lbs, I got let go from my job. It was a downward spiral. I'm finally feeling like I'm in a good place right now, doing the right things, making the right decisions, putting myself and health first. Well, I just found out my boyfriend lost his job today. This scares the crap out of me. I know he is upset, and I don't know what I can do to make him feel better. I'm scared what this is going to do to our relationship, there is going to be the added stress, it's going to be a struggle. I don't know if I'm mentally prepared for it and it's giving me anxiety just thinking about it. The next few months are definitely going to be a test. I hate tests.