MWF ISO BALANCE
Sunday, May 20, 2012
I have always been quite the all-or-nothing kind of girl. When I was bulimic, I lost 50 pounds in 3 months. When I went to therapy, I went daily. I go nonstop for 16hours a day, or dont move from the couch unelss its to nap in bed. And when I decided to change my life, I left my husband, got my own place and lost 20 pounds. A total 180 from the unhealthy, miserable wife I was.
I live with my husband again, I'm a million time healthier, and a pretty happy wife. So now it's time to capitalize on happy and make it JOY. I think the key to that joy, for me, is balance.
I hope this summer to learn to take it easy. I don't have to work out for hours each day, a walk around the park to move my legs and get the dogs out of the house can be enough. I can hav a cup of ice cream in addition to the grilled asparagus for dinner. And when I have to choose between staying at work for an hour (or staying at the gym for another round) or coming home to see my husband, I can choose husband. Yes, I CAN do all those things, but doing them without guilt is getting to the goal of balance.
I alluded Saturday to contemplating my place in the rat race. Trying to squeeze lots of work into the limits of a day means that when I have a moment to realize how hectic life is I get a bit disheartened about it. I am working hard, maybe too hard some days, for success in my career and weight loss and marriage and relationships, and I have to believe at some point I will get to a level of balance where that all comes easier. I have a lot of "someday" dreams about it - like when I have less debt or kids or fewer chores, it will work better. IF that isnt the case though, I'm gonna need some sugggestions. I know alot of you hae the success and balance and dynamic lives I am reaching for, so any tips on the journey would be so appreciated. Thank you in advance, and here's wishing everyone a balanced week!