I am frustrated and a bit down...is this journey an impossible one?
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
I feel discouraged and this is probably just the exhaustion talking...but I feel like I will never win this battle and lose weight. I had the same issues 20 lbs ago (I have gained 20 lbs due to the pregnancy) and now my body is just a mess. I was up a half pound this morning. Why...geeze...lack of sleep and eating oreos and cashews. I snack when I get home from work because I am tired and hungry.
Right now, work is insane. I am in charge of the science fair and it is am impossible task. I have to bring work home and go to bed late. I worked out at 9:30 pm on Monday and tried to do school work at 11pm but was too tired. I was then cranky on Tuesday.
I did exercise this week and really made an effort but with so much pressure and school work, it was actually counterproductive.
My DH is working longer hours and I have the full responsibility of the two kids. I am tired. I never, ever get down time that does not involve sleeping or feeding a baby. I am just tired.
I started this BLC challenge with high hopes and feel like I am missing it since I can't even get online the way I would wish too. I do feel encouraged being part of the team but want to do more...but there is honestly no time at all.
This is just a vent...I know it will pass. I really need a good cry.
I did cut up chicken for lunch tomorrow and added some beans too (baked beans but beans all the same). I will not give up but tonight...I want something bad to eat...and there is NOTHING in the house!
I will try to get some sleep and drink my water. That is partly in my control.
Hanging in there as all Pixies do...even if I am hanging upside down from a branch.