I should have posted this blog B4 my blog Praying Mom...Noble Task, but it's still relevant and worth sharing.
(picture taken by me)
A Mighty Battle Going On 5-20-12
I had a great blog started and thought, 'I better hit the save button before something happens and I accidentally loose everything.' I hit the save icon, and EVERYTHING was gone. Not saved...gone. At first I was like, 'I can't do this all over again.' But the nagging thought of satan not wanting my words read, has brought me back to try again. So, here I go............
Genesis 50:20 "And as for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good in order to bring about this present result, to preserve many people alive."
The words "...you meant evil against me, but God meant if for good..." really jumped off the page at me. My son and I have been struggling. For years I've blamed myself for failing him. Not understanding him. Not knowing what to do to get through to him, to help him. Yes, I've spent years praying for him. I started praying for my children before they were born.
There has been a mighty battle going on for years. I've known since he was a baby that our Creator has a great plan for his life. I've known that He plans to use my son in a mighty way, touching/changing many lives for our Creator. Satan knows, too for he has been diligently after my son. Satan has worked very hard to paint a picture of darkness about him. He would like for others to see nothing but darkness around him, and to hear lies come from his mouth so that they will not trust him. Satan must be very concerned about the man my son will be.
~ I never thought of our struggles as satan's fear of my son. Thank you, Father for revealing that to me today. I'm sure there will be days where I will still feel quilt for 'failing my son', and You will have to remind me there is a mighty battle going on for my son's life and it is satan that I battle, not my son. It is greatly comforting to know that You are here battling next to me for my son's life. And that you WILL have the final word. Your plans for him will NOT be thwarted. You are mightier than the evil one. With You on our side, we have nothing to fear. Thank you, Father. It is comforting to know that my son will be alright, because You can take what is meant for defeat and use it to gain VICTORY.~
Our Creator wants His children to prosper...not harm them. He offers HOPE, LOVE and a FUTURE. Satan, the father of lies, the master of deception, has only endless pain to give. Satan uses my son and I against each other in hopes of exasperating me to the point where I just quit praying for my son, thus making him an easier target. If I were to say to my son 'I give up. I'm done with you. I quit, I'm not going to try to help you any more....' I would destroy my son. My words would be stones thrown at his heart. Then satan will whisper to him ' If your mother will not even fight for you, then who will? No one! No one loves you now. You are all alone.'
I tell my children all the time, "I love you. I will always love you no matter what. I won't always like your choices, but I will always love you and be here for you." I know that satan will continue his fight for my son, but satan needs to know that this momma will never stop fighting for her son. I will keep going to our Creator and asking Him "What do I do?", "How do I help him?" I will keep praying for that hedge of thorns around my son that keeps him moving down our Father's path. I will keep praying for the Angels that do battle for him every day. Because I see what others can't see...I see my son's heart and how he cares for others, I hear the songs my son writes, I feel my son's gentle hands on my shoulder and his arms hug me, I hear "Mom.....I love you". Because my Father never gives up on His children, I will not...can not give up on mine. Because my Father WILL have the final word....He will have VICTORY where satan seeks defeat.
There is a mighty battle going on......and God will have VICTORY.