If Hunger Isnt the Problem..then Eating Isnt the Solution
Sunday, June 03, 2012
When I initially lost 40lbs last year - I learned alot. I finally recognized what an emotional eater I am. I had dealt with alot of stress in the past 10 years and my weight showed every minute of it.
I thought I had learned the magical answer - how to balance my life..yet lose weight and feel healthy at the same time.
However life had other plans for me - this past year was another enormous stressful year. More than I had to handle in awhile. And at first I handled the stress - journalling, tracking my food choices, tracking my exercise and activities.
But then the old habits returned.. I was not completely surprised I have to admit. I had a lifetime of dealing with stress by trying to "eat my feelings". How could I expect 100% results on the first "big stress" I had come along.
I have written about this before - but I am working my way through some of the last remaining stressful weeks right now. I am proud of myself today because I have been reading my journals from the last two years - and have been tracking my food and exercise even on days when I could just say I dont care.
So many Spark friends write about how this is a learning journey through life.. I have written that alot too. But each day I am really opening up my eyes even more now - and instead of regret over weight gained back I am excited that I caught it before it was too late. And that its never too late to begin again.
With each trip to nourish myself in the kitchen.. I am stopping and asking myself why I am eating.. am I really hungry? Am I hungry for something else. And if I am facing a problem.. I ask (while looking in the fridge) .. "will this fix it". The answer has been no.
I am rethinking my spark name..StartingAllOver.. and really giving it alot of thought. I used the mantra as often as I can "If you are tired of starting over..stop giving up" and think by giving myself the name StartingAllOver that subliminally I am allowing weight loss and then regain and then loss to keep repeating itself. And that is something I dont think that I will have to worry about this time.
I may just make a change!!
Its a sunny day today-I am going to read some blogs and then head outside.. I am training my 10 month old pup daily so that we can go on long walks in our healthy life together.. maybe a new name will come to me out in the sunshine...
Have a beautiful sun filled Sunday today