A confession

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Hi, my name is Lacey, and I haven't worked out in over 2 weeks. What started as a "little break" "just an extra day or two to get stuff done" turned into, well.. 2 weeks. What it comes down to is this, I work way better (when it comes to working out anyway) with a set schedule, time to myself and no rush to "get it done NOW!" What first threw my off my course was my bf's change in schedule. When I would get home from work I'd have a few hours to myself to clean up, work out, start dinner, before he would come home. First he lost his job, which sucked but has since started a new job that he enjoys better. When he was briefly unemployed we worked out a bit of a schedule, he found other things to do when I took over the TV to work out. Once he started his new job, we would get home at the same time basically, and that's when the excuses started. Things came up, I would make excuses, I didn't like working out in front of him, the few times I did I felt gross and unattractive and couldn't help but feel like he was watching me, judging me. I mean, things were jiggling that no one should ever see. I know it's not true, but this is my brain talking here and you'd be amazed at the way it works sometimes. Hello therapy? Anyways, then came a trip home to Seattle, I took a few days off the week before to get stuff done before my trip and it turned into a week before my trip. I justified this by riding my bike to work all week, so it wasn't a TOTAL loss. Then the trip itself... I was in town for approximately 5 days and had so much on my plate and then forgot to bring my workout shoes, it was a complete lost cause. I spent the next 3 days after that road tripping from Seattle to Chicago, which I must say was amazing and I had a great time, a dear friend rode with me. We tried to eat smart, but let's face it, it's a road trip. THEN after we arrived in Chicago I got to play tour guide and host for 3 days, which mean, more bad food, drinks, late nights, all horrible things for a diet. Yesterday was my first day back at work in a week, and after a long week prior all I did was relax, it was amazing.

So here I am. I feel like a failure when it comes to Insanity. I feel like part of the reason I was able to talk myself out of working out is because I was kind of burnt out. The workout is GREAT and I really see myself doing it again sometime but I think I'm going to change it up for at least a month and I've learned that I really need to work on getting my eating on track. The nibbles here and there add up and I don't think I'm as good at calculating things in my head as I tell myself I am. Long story short, I fell off the wagon, but I refuse to let it out of my sight, it's time to come up with a new plan and start from the beginning.. again.

Oh, one quick, slightly depressing note. I finally weighed myself on a scale when I was out of town, according to it I GAINED WEIGHT. I realize that it has to be some muscle I built through insanity, because there are inches lost, but still, how disappointing.
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    Insanity is a TOUGH program to stick with. The wagon is always there - just hop back on and you are on your way.
    3282 days ago
    I too do this from time to time. So what I do is try for 10mins workouts that gradually or normally lead to 60mins. lol

    God bless & just "press play."

    3282 days ago
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    Okay, so you took a break.... it happens. Now click the calendar back to Day 1, and do the first step...... START. It's all good!
    3282 days ago
    Thanks guys! I feel lucky to have your support!
    3282 days ago
    Don't beat yourself up, just brush yourself off and start over....... emoticon
    3282 days ago
    Hang in there! Try to stay positive. Sometimes we need a break. You'll make it back to where you were and better! emoticon
    3282 days ago
  • BECKY3126
    I totally fell off the Insanity wagon too. With just two weeks left to go in the program at that. But, I agree. I was burnt out. I just needed to switch it up.

    You will get back on track in no time. It is all about scheduling it in and then telling yourself that you wouldn't skip out on other appointments that you have, so why justify skipping this? Good luck! You can do this!
    3282 days ago
    Keep it up! You'll get there. I love the visual of keeping the wagon in sight.
    3282 days ago
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    Stay motivated!
    3282 days ago
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