Where has the time gone...

Monday, July 16, 2012

Wow - it's been a long time since I was on Sparkpeople at all let alone to blog or do anything else. For about 5 years I have battled several health issues/annoyances that I was told by my regular doctor were all hormone related. Last fall (about the time I stopped coming on this site) things went from bad to worse - I started getting a really bad infection in my right eye every couple of weeks. I have had to be on steroid drops pretty consistantly since then - but it got especially bad in February when I almost lost my sight, had a lump under my arm and all kinds of other anomolies...It's taken 6 months of active and aggressive seeking, tests, etc... but they have finally diagnosed me with Spondyloarapathy (disease of the spine) and with that comes the uviitis in my eye and stomach/digestion issues... some of which may be exasperated by hormone levels but are NOT caused by my hormones. All these years I believed my regular doctor and just thought that I was a whimp for having the pain and the issues that I have but come to find out - I'm not!

So with this chemo medicine they have me on to try and control all the issues comes nausea when I get hungry (before I just had pain - now I have both), the potential for hair loss, but so far the eye issue has gotten better (I've gone 2 weeks without a major flare up) and the potential for liver or kidney damage - yee ha! The last eye flare up I had I was in Phoenix for work and I ended up having to keep my eye dilated for 20 days to the point that I couldn't see and I was having flashes of light... scary.

All this brings me to the other problem... with the stress and the medicine I've gained 10 pounds in the last few months and feel absolutely awful when I look in the mirror. I can't fit into my clothes and my self esteem has taken a real nose-dive. Not only do I have to deal with the possibility that I may be completely crippled some day and blind or with cataracts but I'm going to be fat too uggh....

So I'm coming back here hoping that just by tracking my food again it will help me pin point bad days vs good days and what I should and shouldn't eat and the minimum amount of calories I need to not have stomach issues... I have a feeling it will be a long road ahead but I refuse to just accept being fat... I'm going to fight it the best that I can.
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  • CINCIN910
    wow Mel. What an ordeal. So happy you pushed your docs thru and got some answers. Prayers for you. Keep me posted. Hope all else is well.
    I pop on here to track weight and measurements. Came across this and have been thinking of you.
    3214 days ago
    Thanks Elisa...I appreciate it.
    3226 days ago
    emoticon back!

    MANY blessings upon you!!!!

    Let us know how you are doing.....
    3226 days ago
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