What happened to you?
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
“What happened to you?” These four words cut through me like a knife this past Saturday. Let me back up…I should have known that my afternoon was not going to go well by the way I frantically searched my closet for something to wear. It was the day of my daughter’s 10th birthday and I knew there would be plenty of photo opportunities. I had this cute outfit planned out in my head. It was a cute sleeveless yellow, gray and white top, and the dreaded white jeans. Now, I knew I had gained a few pounds, but I wasn’t prepared for the sound of horror music playing loudly in my mind as I looked in the mirror. You know the scene I’m talking about? When the camera cuts in and out as the psycho starts the stabbing motion? I digress…. What to wear, what to wear? In the end I settled for a pair of uber stretchy jeans…uh non white jeans…and a blousy floral top. I thought I looked decent….slightly plump, but decent none the less.
Now back to where we started…I ran into an old family friend. Old friend as in number of years known, but also old as in a considerable difference in age. I greeted her with a warm embrace and a loving smile…one that was quickly replaced by the look of sadness and disappointment as she exclaimed, “What happened to you?” A part of me knew what she meant, but my ego would not allow me to comprehend. “What do you mean”, I exclaimed. She then proceeded to tell me how good I looked the last time she saw me. My mind quickly translated: Damn you are fat!
Although I was mortified and angered by her words, the truth is, I have gained waaaaay too much weight! Now her approach may have been tacky and classless but it did give me another reason to be motivated. See, I can find a positive in anything. So I think I will give her a pass
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