I have been having a hard time with getting on track, tracking nutrition, planning and following through on daily exercise, even drinking water seems to be beyond my grasp, or seemed.
I have a very demanding, sometimes very physical, and always very stressful career. I work over 50 hours a week, and I'm a workaholic. I don't like to admit that, but I'm a perfectionist at work, and I won't leave until it's all done. I'm over 50, well over, and prediabetic, and I know I need to give the same 'aholic' focus to myself that I give to my company. At some point, my health should have equal importance in my life as my career. I used to always say that I gave more importance to academic goals than physical goals. The mind was more important than the body when I was growing up. At some point in life, that priority has to change, if you want life to continue.
I started SparkPeople during a vacation week. I was online every day, reading all the articles, posting in some spark teams, cooking up Spark Recipes, drinking and measuring water, tracking meals, and even logging miles on the treadmill, plus lifting a few weights. I was worried what would happen when I returned to work, how could I maintain this new healthy lifestyle and balance my career hours. I returned to work, and had 3 of the most grueling weeks ever. I'm exhausted, I'm brain dead even, no time or energy or motivation to keep any of the new habits I was working to keep in my life.
The YoYo feeling was like a cloud overhanging me, like I'm going to have to give up trying to improve myself ... again. I focused on the results, regardless of my 3 weeks of hell, I've lost 6 pounds. I may not have done it perfectly, but I did it!
I was thinking to start back today, reread the Fast Break strategies, and I ran across this moment of aha, under Finding Time.
"Not only should a diet fit you, it should work within the lifestyle you’re dealing with. Yes, your lifestyle is going to change as you move through the SparkDiet. But healthy change starts in bits and pieces. Light spring rain showers are life-giving and nourishing. Take that same amount of water, put it in tidal wave form, and it becomes destructive and lethal. Too much, too soon can do more harm than good.
To avoid the tidal wave, start finding ways to work new, healthy habits into your existing lifestyle. Your life is what it is. Ideal or not, that’s your dieting starting point. You’ll be a lot happier, a lot saner -- and a lot thinner -- if you work with your existing lifestyle instead of against it. Ignoring realities of your daily life just invites failure and frustration. "
Wow, my lifestyle is what it is. I work a lot of stressful hours, that won't change. I can still find ways to make healthy decisions, create healthy habits. Little changes are all that's needed. I don't have to be perfect all the time in order to feel accomplishments, just look at my tracker, accomplishments can be very small each week and add up to a whole lot of changes over a lifetime.