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It has been some time....

Friday, September 07, 2012

I haven't posted in some time.

My Sons are always on my mind... I'm a mom what can I say!

Brian paid us a surprise visit Labor Day weekend. It was very nice to see him and we spent some time together. He is struggling with his business in this economy. He also told me that he is now without health insurance, couldn't keep up... more worry for me. As he is the one who had 4 surgeries last year.

Joshua in New york is now working after being without a job for about 5 months. Working 12-14 hour days, He is single and young, but still how can you sustain that? I was helping him financially to make his rent at least so he would have a place to sleep and sending care packages, as at few times there was no food in the house. Still to worry.

Joe has a job, no worry there, but they have tried invetro fertilization 3 times and it did not work. They want children, I want grandchildren (I have never pressured or even asked!) It would be fun to spoil them! So my hear aches for them.

Phillip is working now full time at the Spa after being laid off from Sears after 12 years, he could have went somewhere else in the company as he was part of corporate, but he choose to step up at the Spa after he and his partner bough and renovated a franchise spa. It is doing very well and I am very happy for him and his partner.

Mom is holding her own. Mostly doing things on her own and independent. A blessing

Me, I'm stressed and tired all the time. Never enough hours in the day and I am either working or getting ready to leave again for negotiations. I have only gained about 15 lbs of my 50 lb weight loss back. So I'm rather maintaining right now. Not where I want to be, but at least not doing total damage! My schedule and times away from home, eating out a lot, out of necessity while traveling make it hard. I do try to pick the healthier menu choices, and eat more salads.

This economy is hurting everyone I know. It has also been a very HOT summer here in the Midwest, which made it very difficult for me to want to be outside again after work, after being outside working in it all day!

Well enough for now, just gotta keep on keeping on, trying harder, and not let life derail me to much!

Thanks to ALL my Spark friends for all the goodies and kind thoughts and just for being who you all are! We journey through life together, and I am blessed by knowing all of you and sharing pieces of ourselves on the threads and your blogs. THANK YOU and God bless each of you!
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  • 1LIFE4ME
    So much to worry about these days-this economy has done a # on alot us. And being a mother you can't help but want to help. I have 4 children myself from ages 7 to 22 so I'm at different stages of the worry at all time. Right now it's my 16 year old daughter. yikes.

    I just love Sundays because its my day to reflect on all my blessings and thank my Lord for loving and forgiving me.
    I am a huge advocate for children and wonder if Joe has considered adoption? you dont have to answer if you don't want.
    Dont worry about Joshua and those long days at work-I remember being able to do such things at a young age. Oh wait that was just a few years ago LOL
    4 boys hey? wow:) that is great! Betcha that first little granddaughter will be a princess!!

    Well take care of yourself and just want you to know when you're feeling down and need someone I'm always here for you, only on SparkPeople though. Don't call me or come to my house with that! LOL (a joke!!)
    Seriously though, I enjoyed reading your blog! And I am here for you:) I'll be seeing you around!
    ~Lisa emoticon
    3161 days ago
    It sounds like you truly are 'being a mom'. But don't forget to be yourself & look after yourself. The more you invest in 'you', the more energy you will have for the other things...especially your kids.

    Take care. You can do what you need to do.
    3162 days ago
    Sounds like you are managing. it can be hard when you are worrying a lot.
    3163 days ago
    That was a very pleasant blog. I enjoyed reading it and hearing about all your trials and joys. Thank you for sharing. Yes, we are friends. Ain't it grand?
    3163 days ago
    It's good to see you blogging! I know about worrying about kids. No matter how old they get you still worry. You have to let them go, but can't help helping when you can. I still send my 24 year old care packages, even though she says she doen't need anything I think she likes getting them anyway.

    I hope things look up for you and your kids soon. The summer is almost over. At least it's getting cooler here in the evenings. I hope it is there too.

    Take care of yourself!
    3163 days ago
    emoticon Sounds like some things are looking up and others not so much. Hang in there and I hope that you can find a way to pamper yourself this weekend.
    3163 days ago
    Good for you, maintaining!
    These are tough times, aren't they? Not just in the Us, here in NZ too.
    I have had times when worrying has added to my burdens, and I found a little trick that really helped me, and maybe it will help you.
    So here goes... And stop reading now if you prefer.

    For this you will need a small notebook that fits into your purse, and a nice pen.
    Set aside a quiet time, five minutes a day, where you can concentrate and write undisturbed. In your notebook, write down the things you are worrying about. Put down everything you can think of.
    Now decide what is the most important one to worry about, and spend the rest of the five minutes worrying about that. Then stop worrying.
    Next day, do the same thing, look at your list, add that day,s worries, worry about the most important one til five minutes is up. If you think of other worries during the day, get out your notebook and write it down, so your list has got all your worries. Then worry through them each in order of importance, five minutes a day until you need to move on to the next worry. You decide what to worry about, and when to move on to the next, but only five minutes all up!
    You WILL get through the list, trust me. And if you want, you can start again.
    It takes some discipline to maintain a worry journal and a worry practice, but

    I found it really helped to stop the worries from intruding into all parts of my life.
    When I got through my bad patch, guess what I did with that journal?
    If I ever find myself bothered by worries again, I'll splurge on a new notebook.
    3163 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon wishes!!

    3163 days ago
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