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Because you are my daughter

Monday, September 17, 2012

Sept 2012

It's been a very long time since I've been back at Spark. But here I am. Last December I lost my mom due to complications from diabetes. The past months have been numbing and I'm still trying to figure out who I am without her. Practically two years to the day before my dad passed away. It has been a very emotional and difficult time. But here I am trying to figure out how to go forward. I know that I need to start eating healthy and plan my meals. I know I need to get my sugar under control. I am both exhausted and overwhelmed. I can hear my mother's voice saying to me, "You can, because you are my daughter". There is just this big empty space.

Today, I am making an effort, that's all can commit to. Today I have actually planned my meals and tracked my food. I am not worrying about how much weight to lose (which approx 80 lbs) or how fast. I just want to start, to take those small steps.

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    I am so glad that you are planning your meals and moving forward. emoticon It is so hard to lose someone you care about so much. It leaves a big void in your life. I love that you hear your mom's voice pushing you forward. You will survive being an orphan and take on your role as the oldest generation.
    It is hard, but it is important you take care of yourself. You'll be happier sooner if you do. Best wishes to you. emoticon
    3235 days ago
    The loss of our mother leaves such a hollow place in our lives! I lost my mother in 1984 - such a long time ago, but there is never a day I don't think of her or something she said or something she did or something.............keep her forever in your heart and she will always be with you pushing you one more step.
    Stay focused emoticon

    3236 days ago
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    Good luck to you!
    3236 days ago
    I lost my mother 10 years ago and never a day goes by that I don't think of her. You can do this....because you are her daughter.

    And welcome back.
    3236 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/17/2012 11:19:18 PM
    Sorry for your losses. Things will get better in time.
    3237 days ago
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    I'm sorry to hear of such a devestating loss. But just remember, baby steps or giant leaps - they all take you in the right direction. Good luck!
    3237 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/17/2012 3:24:29 PM
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