Because you are my daughter
Monday, September 17, 2012
It's been a very long time since I've been back at Spark. But here I am. Last December I lost my mom due to complications from diabetes. The past months have been numbing and I'm still trying to figure out who I am without her. Practically two years to the day before my dad passed away. It has been a very emotional and difficult time. But here I am trying to figure out how to go forward. I know that I need to start eating healthy and plan my meals. I know I need to get my sugar under control. I am both exhausted and overwhelmed. I can hear my mother's voice saying to me, "You can, because you are my daughter". There is just this big empty space.
Today, I am making an effort, that's all can commit to. Today I have actually planned my meals and tracked my food. I am not worrying about how much weight to lose (which approx 80 lbs) or how fast. I just want to start, to take those small steps.