Saturday, October 20, 2012
Looking back over past blogs I am seeing a pattern. I am and emotional eater and I repeat the same patterns over and over.
To say I a ashamed of myself would be an understatement... I am going back to basics and while I am doing that I am going to think what has been the cause of my emotional eating.
My Aunt comes and stayed with me. I have trouble keeping things in the order she things they should be. I love her dearly but at times I feel like I can not do anything right. My car died. The timing belt broke and to fix that and the damage done by it breaking would cost $5400. Not pocket change I have hang around. My Aunt paid for a new van and though she means wells I feel I have to keep the car they way she would want. My son is 20 and I am waiting for him to grow up. He is on his own, but bouncing from My parents home, to friends homes. He is in with a bad group of people who do drugs and that got him arrested 2 weeks ago. Last week he was just being a kid and ended up falling off of a car and breaking his wrist bad enough it needs surgery. He and his best friend constantly expect me to be at their beck and call to give them rides to and from work and to other places they want to go. I feel like I am being selfish when I say NO. I have to push to get gas money from them and they resent giving me any. I do now know why I am such a push over when I need to grow a back bone.