JOANNINE

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Saturday, October 20, 2012

Looking back over past blogs I am seeing a pattern. I am and emotional eater and I repeat the same patterns over and over.

To say I a ashamed of myself would be an understatement... I am going back to basics and while I am doing that I am going to think what has been the cause of my emotional eating.

My Aunt comes and stayed with me. I have trouble keeping things in the order she things they should be. I love her dearly but at times I feel like I can not do anything right. My car died. The timing belt broke and to fix that and the damage done by it breaking would cost $5400. Not pocket change I have hang around. My Aunt paid for a new van and though she means wells I feel I have to keep the car they way she would want. My son is 20 and I am waiting for him to grow up. He is on his own, but bouncing from My parents home, to friends homes. He is in with a bad group of people who do drugs and that got him arrested 2 weeks ago. Last week he was just being a kid and ended up falling off of a car and breaking his wrist bad enough it needs surgery. He and his best friend constantly expect me to be at their beck and call to give them rides to and from work and to other places they want to go. I feel like I am being selfish when I say NO. I have to push to get gas money from them and they resent giving me any. I do now know why I am such a push over when I need to grow a back bone.
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  • SEAWILLOW
    Set your limits and stick to them
    2953 days ago
  • PATTYMCGRAW
    You're like me: we need to keep working on our self-esteem. Then I think the "no" will come easier. It's a hard task and must be taken one step at a time. Start doing things just for you. Practice not feeling guilty. In time, this will get easier and you will feel so much better about yourself.
    2957 days ago
  • TATTER3
    Keep Sparkin'!!! I'm learning to say no and getting better at it everyday!
    2958 days ago
  • DRUIDPRINCESS
    Firstly, what a magical background picture you have! Did you go there? What did you feel like when you were there? Think back to that time and just breathe in some peace...

    Secondly, someone once told me "Be careful what you say 'yes' to, because by saying 'yes' to something you are saying 'no' to something else... What are you neglecting because of your unlimited generosity?

    It is so much more difficult to say 'no', especially to the people that we really love; but often this helps them to grow, to mature past their shortcomings and to be proud of their own accomplishments.

    Love and hugs to you!
    2958 days ago
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